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Creep encounter #2 Melbourne inspired.

2011-11-28T23:10:00.000+11:00

So I've just come back from melbourne... and although these stories aren't in order... here's creep encounter #2!

So my MLC girls and I were exploring Melbourne... and they've now deduced that my seeming magnet for creeps is due to my lack of jeans wearing..... which i disagree with.
We were at Crown Casino, and I wandered off for a bit to play on the pokies machines...
and then the man next to me turns and starts asking me questions about the machine.... which I didn't think much of. He was a 60+ european looking man... seedy moustache and all..

I keep doing my thing... pressing buttons and losing money and what not.
Then he turns and says :
Man: you'e a very beautiful girl....
Me: urghh thanks *rapidly presses buttons*
Man: 'ni hao ma?' i had lovely chinese woman i knew.....
Me: oh, that's interesting1 *continues to press random buttons*
Man: oh this is my first time here.... can you teach me? I can give you some money..
Me: uhhhh... sorry! i don't think so! *grabs shopping and runs*

It's defs not super creepy.... but... old men who try to chat to girls are often creepy.

So to make up for the lack of creepiness, here's some luvos from melbourne. everyday i'm luvoing.

Resurrection? & Creep encounter #1

2011-11-09T10:14:00.000+11:00

I kind of miss blogging.
Maybe I'll take people's advice... no more emotional waffle on here anymore.
This shall henceforth be used to document my creeper stories and shopping adventure :)

The start of this will be the creep encounter that preceded it all, I swear I was not the epic creep magnet I am today before this.....

CREEP ENCOUNTER #1
This was one day towards the beginning of year 12... that started it all.
This day I was sitting in Hurstville library, studying away... I remember Brendon was meant to meet me that day to study together.. but he dogged me... so I'm going to blame this one on him =P

I was sitting at a table near the teenage computers (for all you Hurstville library bums) doing maths or something tedious... and this old man, probably mid sixties, had a lazy eye, Asian and generally just old, sat down across from me. I really didn't think anything of this... seemed pretty normal... so I just continued to study...

Probably at a point where I was tearing out my hair from the insanity of maths, I suddenly feel someone touching my shoulders from behind me. I turn around and it was OLD GUY massaging my shoulders.......

Honestly at this point I was a bit wtf!? but I was kind of in a state of shock. I know people are like you should have slapped him or something! But when it happens, you don't really know what to do.

He then started conversing with me....

Him: 'Oh..... do you need a job?'
Me: 'no.... I don't think so..'
Him: 'Oh, my friend's coming down for the weekend and he needs someone to take him around and entertain him *wink*'
Me: '.....'
Him: ' can I get your number?'
Me: *hides mobile* 'I don't have a phone!!'

... and then I pretty much ran out of the library while I grabbed all my stuff.
I then proceeded to have a mini panic attack outside and I called Marxy.
I love that the first time someone has ever tried to pick me up /ask for my number... was a creepy old guy.....

Well that's my attempt at the documentation of my creep encounters.... may document another one soon if I feel the urge... :)

The end..?

2011-04-24T12:00:00.000+10:00

The end of Gina's blog..
?

A bit of a Whinge

2011-02-28T22:49:00.001+11:00

I'm so tired like allllllllll the time.
I'm so sick of people expecting that my life revolves around them, that I have no other purpose in life than to serve them. That I'm always available, that I have nothing else better to do.
Guess I'm feeling a bit underappreciated for some things, and just really really exhausted and drained.

It's ok. Shopping will make it all better. Next post shall be about my shoe. loveeeeeee

What to do

2011-02-08T21:40:00.001+11:00

So sick of EVERYTHING. I'm so lost now, I don't know what to do....

JFu

2011-02-03T21:45:00.004+11:00

Jason's been gone a week now, and I already miss him :(
I remember agggggges ago he told me to blog about him, but I didn't.. so here it is now? haha
If you somehow read this Jason, keep safe and look after yourself at the army!

AND I WANT LETTTTTTERS!

It's so weirddd, him not being around to chill with =/

Miss Independent

2011-01-20T21:48:00.004+11:00

2011 resolution:

Become independent.
So I haven't blogged lately :( Haven't had much motivation to do so I spose.

But one of my 2011 resolutions is to become independent. I don't want to have to rely on ANYONE, emotionally or physically or what not.
People aren't always going to be around for me, or sometimes they might not be what I wish they were. And I don't want to be completely broken if that's the case, I got to learn to do things for myself :)

like ne-yo says:

There's something

About kinda woman

That can do

It for herself

I look at her

And it makes me proud

There's something

About her

There something

Ooh

So sexy

About the kinda women

That don't even

Need my help

So my trip to melbourne was interesting, and I really want to go with friends some time now :)

Out of it came many many retarded gina luvoing photos :)

Pet peeve

2010-12-21T18:37:00.002+11:00

I swear I blogged before about my pet peeves.... but I can't find it... so sorry if this is a repeat.
One of my big pet peeves are when people ask the questions
'Why don't you have a boyfriend?'
and
'Why don't you get a boyfriend?

Honestly, they're both pretty stupid questions. I should start a list of responses to the questions.
The first question, is either a rhetorical question with the answer 'I don't know' or the person's asking for you to point out your flaws, in which case.. I'd be tempted to make up wildly awkward responses.

'I'm fat, ugly and have no personality'
'I prefer my own gender'
'I prefer the term 'friends with benefits' over the term 'boyfriend'
'I'm actually a part of a religious cult where we don't believe in relationships, we believe in asexual reproduction'
'I just divorced my third husband'
'I DO have a boyfriend, he just doesn't know it'
'I believe that my stalking of Zac Efron would qualify him to be my boyfriend'

And the second one just sounds ridiculous to me, 'get a boyfriend'. It makes it sound like you can buy any guy off the street to be your boyfriend. It's a relationship we're talking about, not a desire for a male prostitute.

Why is it so important to have a boyfriend anyways? Does it determine how desireable someone is or how popular they are? Is it a status statement or a statement that says your loved?

Who cares?

A play

2010-12-03T17:01:00.002+11:00

Is life just a series of acts, with a series of roles that we must play?

The responsible and smart daughter, the intelligent teacher, the helpful friend, the aspiring student.

What if it's nothing more than an act? What would I be like without these obligations?

on another note:
what i'm totallllllly into now :
- blazers
- boyfriend shirts/ guys' button up shirts
- bangles. moremoremore
- black heels... i'm on the hunt for the perfect pair of simple black heels.

hey! they all start with b! will have a shopping extravaganza after my xmas shopping and after i've put aside money for the MLC roadtrip.

photospam

2010-11-25T19:19:00.005+11:00

i should learn how to protect myself.
cos they won't be there forever.

let's just say this helps me stop overthinking.

with some of the beautiful ladies of the brain ;)

what a cutiee 8D

rena's 19th... practicing my creepy face
pretty ladies!
hahaha bathroom luvoing at blackbird cafe, blurrry

apparently this is my pedo face
cecil + darren's 19ths
we like long walks on the sand and bathing in nice sunlight

sab/chervonne's cruise...
hahahaha i dunno why i like this photo, like i look actually retarded, but 8D creepy tutorness maybe

with one of the beautiful birthday girlss

EDC.

2010-11-18T09:27:00.003+11:00

So, many of you guys would remember the time where I was fully Edison crazed. This was back before his scandal and his downfall, however in reality, I've never really moved into a state of dislike, in fact I still like him.

Manymany posters of him still cover my walls, and I still have my autographed photo which says 'to georgina'.

A lot of people think he's a pervert, an idiot, whatever. But somehow, I still kind of admire him, not for the stupid things he did, but how he handled it. So recently he released another single, and seriously that takes guts. Half the world probably hates him, he received heaps of hate mail even bullets in the mail, yet he still has the guts and courage to bounce back. Sure, you may not hear about him anymore but he's doing really well regardless.

Mr Sandman
http://vimeo.com/15431258
his latest single/mv, it's not fabulous however some of the choreography is pretty damn amazing.

His clothing line Clot, is doing super well.. doing a lot of collaborations with big brands. and it's actually one of my pet wants, I really really really want a Clot t-shirt. However, I'll prob only invest in that after christmas, I really need to save up for presents =/

At the moment he's actually got an exhibition of his artsy stuff being displayed.

No matter how much you hate him, you've got to admit he has some guts, and he bounced back really well. He didn't just sit there wallowing in self=pity, he did some pretty gross stuff... but everyone makes mistakes.

and plus, he's cute ;)

Sudden Urge to Blog

2010-11-06T19:37:00.002+11:00

Sudden urge to blog even though I should be busily studying away. THIS IS NOT A SYMPATHY POST. JUST A VERBAL RANT. PLEASE DON'T PITY ME OR I SHALL MAKE ANGRY EYEBROWS AT YOU >=[

Thanks heaps and heaps and heaps to rebecca and adrian for having that d&m with me the other day. However, I still feel very contrary to what you guys told me, even though there's plenty of evidence out there to support what you guys were telling me. Sure I've lost some weight, but I still feel disgusting and fat, I still super want to lose 5kg. Maybe I'm superficial? I don't think I'll be happy with myself til then.

I really hate that I can't strike up and hold conversation when meeting new guys, I have nothing that poses an interest.. I'm not pretty skinny or amazingly interesting. Everytime I meet someone whom I might be marginally interested in, it falls flat on its face and they end up being interested in one of my friends. I don't know what's wrong with me, I just have nothing to say and end off appearing boring boring boring. Sure somewhere inside me I hold the belief that there's someone for everyone and it's just about timing, but there's also the belief that somehow I'm an exception, and that I'm going to end up alone. That being said, I would want to be the last single one out of my friends, just to keep everyone else company.

I somehow always appear to be overcompensating for my lack of interesting points, end up overdressed or overly made up or overly annoying. But if I can hold interest, may have something that raises an eyebrow right? So that people won't look away instantly, even if it's them thinking 'wtf is she wearing' or 'wtf? why's she being so annoying'.

So there's a saying, you need to love yourself so that others can love you too. I try to accept myself, but somehow I can't. Then I always end up sounding like a whiney cow. I guess this is what's good about blogging, people can't try to persuade me otherwise... words just flow out as much as I want them too, however I do still love a good d&m.

So many times I've become a stepping stone, just watching as time and time again people end up falling for my friends, I'm there to encourage interests and comfort rejection. I don't REALLY mind being single.. gives me a lot more freedom to perve on guys, do whatever I want and hang out with the boys I love. What gets to me sometimes is just being that stepping stone or that perpetual third wheel. AND I'M NOT DISCOURAGING IT. I mean, I don't mind talking to people who are interested in my friends, at least I can discourage them from doing stupid things? And I don't mind being around couples.. just sometimes it gets a little too much for me, especially if it's unexpected and I had something I wanted to tell my friend privately.

Maybe rebecca's right, and I do massively overthink things. But I can't help it...
it's a terrible cycle, gina emos gina eats icecream gina gets fat and gina emos again... a neverending cycle. Everything's just everywhere and I'm not certain about anything anymore. Only that I love my boys and girlies. You guys mean the world to me :)

acronymns.

2010-11-04T23:55:00.000+11:00

wthiswwm.
sfead.
need to d&m but no time.
so frustrated. i give up.

pent up hate.

2010-10-17T20:49:00.003+11:00

I have so much pent up hate,
especially towards the male gender.
i feel like a combination of punching the next guy who opens his mouth at me, crying the next time someone talks to me, screaming my lungs out at the next person who says anything remotely annoying and just hermitting away and not ever coming out again.

Accessories

2010-10-10T21:33:00.002+11:00

I'm not sure whether I've done one of these blogs or not.... but oh well :)

Why do I love to go shoe/bag/jewelery/nail polish shopping?
Accessories are damn gorgeous no matter how you look. It doesn't matter if you have warts on your face, if you've got 60 rolls of fat or it you're supersuper hairy, they'll always be gorgeous. It doesn't matter if you don't loook like how you want, or if you don't have your ideal body, accessories are always gorgeous. Clothes shopping can be such a self esteem killer sometimes, those mannequins don't have flesh, or rolls of flesh, or blemishes, because they're industrially molded plastic things which are meant to represent society's ideal figure. You see a dress which loooks terrific on the mannequin, but looks crap when you try it on. You see your blemishes and flaws even more. But with a bag, or a bangle.. it still looks freaking gorgeous.

ending this post on a more 'luvo' note.
luvoing creates amusement :)

a retard in study clothes (Y)

i'm quite insanely scary here LOL

frame me up. :)

MidSem Break

2010-10-03T11:18:00.004+11:00

I've been waiting for agggggges for this midsem break, and it's proving to be pretty good. Even if I haven't really touched my books ><"

Let's see let's see.
Last Friday, met up with Rebecca, Kevin, Brendon, Cecil and Daniel. Had dinner at Mamas, an Italian restaurant across from Sanctuary. Wasn't too bad.. and then went sharkies... where I went downhill. I'm not going to go into detail, but don't drink when you're sick, at least not too much.

doing what we do best: luvoing

Saturday, I was supersuper sick but I met up with Alice and Hannah and we went to Glebe. Bumped into Karmen which was a super nice surprise! Was a reaaaaaaallly nice day, I miss these girls so much. Did a bit of shopping, and then went to San Churros for some yummy food.

Sunday = work

Monday, another full day of work, then dinner with the fam.

Tuesday, work in the morning then met up with heaps of the MLC girls at unsw, yay! I really miss our chilling times and lunch times that we spend together. Ended up bumping into heaps of other ppl which was really good. Had a super awesome day. The mlc girls were going to go hurricances, however we ended up sitting in a circle in the dark on the floor next to the harbour, eating kfc. LOL best dinners are these ones.

Wednesday, workkkkk then hotpot with some sghs ppl! Was so nice and satisfying, we ended the night hoboing it with a tub of icecream. so good :)

Thursday, work then date day with emilie! shopped and ate and shopped and ate. was nice, wish emilieee bought more tho =[ =[

omnomnom food

Sat, work then emilie's bday! yayayayayayay! twas fun.... lots of good company and food and chilling. hope you enjoyed my present my dear!

A year...

2010-09-23T21:13:00.002+10:00

I can't believe it's been a year already since we graduated... It still feels like yesterday when I was sitting in the common room, pigging out, watching things on our laptops and laughing loudly with my MLC girls. We had so many great memories in our duration of high school, and I have no regrets. All these graduation fb activities have brought back a sense of nostalgia, I miss the MLC girls of '09 dearly, dearly, dearly.

We survived city experience, broken hill, exams, the stress, all the good time and the bad together. I think I'll always be proud to be a MLC girl.

Much love. ♥

I wonder

2010-09-19T22:11:00.002+10:00

- That tingly feeling when you txted/fb-ed/im-ed me.
- That fluttery feeling when you did or said something sweet.
- That warm feeling when we shared a smile or laugh.
- That tinge of jealousy.

Wonder if that's what you feel.
Wonder if that's what you felt.
I doubt it though.

Can't shake those feelings of inadequacy.

Way too busy at the moment, and I don't know what to do.... work and uni and study and having a life. how do i balance it all?

Gosh I love you guys ♥

2010-09-16T18:09:00.005+10:00

with fi

amy ♥
the expected gina luvoing

the pretty card!
my dearest lily
keithkeith :(
my bffl ♥♥

awwww jfu what a cutie
rebeccaaa
a retard and sue
pretty sarah
my lovelies ♥♥
the birthday boy. hottties
ronald and little darren
almost a complete group photo.

p.s you were just meant to be eyecandy, why do my thoughts have to be so stupid? i'll only hurt myself this way.
no gina no.

Busybusy

2010-08-29T16:09:00.002+10:00

Busy gina = tired gina
I hope all this pays off... working so many days, studying much harder than last sem, social life hasn't died thattt much. Aced my chem quiz, first time in my life. But, it was only 5% but hopefully it's a good sign for the rest of my results.

Study hard, work hard, play hard.

Inadequacy

2010-08-10T20:40:00.001+10:00

I feel so inadequate.

Too many gorgeous, stunning, beautiful, talented, smart, hardworking, sweet, generous friends.
What is up with my random moments of down-ness?

Past 2.5 weeks

2010-08-08T21:28:00.003+10:00

I haven't blogged in ages, and I don't really have a reason. I don't really have anything to blog about I guess, even though so many things have happened... like Daniel's, my epic date, the visit to UNSW, M&M's... Now uni's started, everything seems kind of bland and routine.

I've just been so exhausted, lots of things happening. Somedays I just can be bothered, I don't eat the whole day until like 7pm... or I'm so exhausted I fall asleep at 7:30pm.. And I don't understand why these periods of down-ness keep coming, there's really nothing that I'm emo-ing about.

There's this little boy I know, and it amazes me how much strength he and his family has. He was born with a mental retardation, and even though he's in high school, his mental and learning capacity is that of a five year old. Even though he may not be what is accepted as socially normal, he's the sweetest boy and more intelligent then most of the people I encounter in everyday life. He knows that his mum works hard to look after him and his sister, and everytime they go shopping he insists on pushing the trolley because it'd be heavy for his mum. He carries his younger sister's school bag because he insists that it's too heavy for her. He greets everyone with a smile, and by name, asking how their day was. He gets pushed over at school, and gets back on his feet to tell people he's ok, even if he was intentionally hurt.

This boy and his family has so much strength, I hold great admiration for them. He's got the biggest heart, the ability to forgive and forget and look out for others even though everyone else feels like they should be looking out for him.

Really makes me question my own selfishness, this boy shows selflessness that I may never be able to replicate.

Weirddd

2010-07-21T22:13:00.000+10:00

Is it weird that I'm going to feel heaps lonely once uni starts? Like, holidays have been fabulous, seeing either the hurstville kids or the mlc girls tonnnnnes. Once uni starts, hardcore study is going to have to happen, and I won't get to see most people much at all. Like I've got heaps of people at uni to hang out with and see, and there are 2 or 3 of the MLC girls at uni, but it's not the same. I don't know, it's hard to explain. I enjoy hanging out with the USYD kids, but somehow.. I'll still miss everyone else. I just don't want to let go of the holidays.

New burst.

2010-07-18T00:46:00.002+10:00

A sudden burst of motivation after tonight. I will work hard to improve myself in all aspects. Appearance (lose weight, get better skin, better hair, improve makeup skills, improve fashion sense), Personality (be less lazy, be less awkward, be more social, be less self centered) and Study (do well!, study hardcore, get into nutrition).

Gina gogogo!

2010-07-13T11:25:00.001+10:00

I'm sorry!

A Contender

2010-07-11T16:25:00.004+10:00

If there were an award for luvoing, I'm pretty sure I'd be a contender LOL. For influential luvoing + amount of luvos perhaps.

This time, I influenced my sisters + cousin into luvoing with me, some classics poses ;)

asian peace :)
smiles all around

lover heart

pufferfish!
tongue.
GINA 8D YAYYYY
First intials
asian asian asian

glasses 8D
GINA POSE IT
scareddd
failwhale
One of my goals in life is to own a sticker photo machine in my room. I would never come out. ever. i'm having to make do with photobooth atm xD
it costs $8000 to buy.. so if anyone would like to donate to my cause... =P

The future

2010-07-07T00:19:00.003+10:00

You never know what the future holds. It's funny, everytime I talk to my dear Hannah Nam, it's the same... she knows where I'm coming from. Even though I've been in a relationship before I can never see myself in another one. Like actually, I can see myself being single forever. Instead of a crazy cat lady, I'll become a crazy shoe lady. Shelves that line ALL my walls, filled with rows and rows and rows of gorgeous shoes. And I'll have little compartment thingos filled with bangles categorised by colour. And nailpolishes in pretty colour combinations. I kind of miss being loved though, having someone there when I need it, being that important and cherished. But you know what, as long as I have my girls, it's ok. I remember talking to Claire, if we're 50 and still single, we're buying a house together. But beware, I'm bringing my shoes with me ;) Would kind of be nice to be a crazy shoe lady. At least I wouldn't have to worry about being taller than anyone else :)

Gahhh

2010-07-04T00:53:00.003+10:00

I hate this. I've been pretty much feeling like crap for the last couple of days. For no particular reason. They're all just little things that have been building up. I'm so sick of everything. It's so stupid that I feel this let down. It's so stupid that I feel this way, stupid stupid stupid, I'm just being selfish and stingey. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Get over it!
Kinda just want to D&M one on one with someone, but stupidly again my timing is awful. If anyone is free today at 1pm around Hurst, please give me a call.
Stupid stupid stupid.

Start of holidays

2010-07-02T18:46:00.004+10:00

I had other posts in mind, but I'm too lazy.

Wednesday after last exam:
Watched the boys play at Wembley's, had a walk around the shops with the girls then capitols, and then hot pot at Little Lamb! Was sooooo yummy, around $30 each and the food was good. It was a buffet style dinner, so as much salad/meat/seafood as you like. Really nice for a cold night, smelt like hot pot for the rest of the night too.

Saturday:
Started off with Biennale with Alice, Cecil, Jfu, Nathan, Brendon, Yoyo, Daniel. MCA then Cockatoo Island. Was fun fun!

:)

nawww... in an artwork with nathan + yolanda
then went to prize paradise and played bball and claw machines! yayyyy

then dinner at kasumi with the mlc girls. yummmmmay jap food with marxy, kate, alice, lily, hannah and carol.

then went clubbing afterwards at funky with kate, hannah and carol. so coldddd waiting outside :(

carol missed! LOL

Sunday:
Rachel's 18th! hahahah me and em got lost... for like 40 mins.. wandering botanic gardens.. whilst the silly train driver person gave us the wrong directions :( was freezing but fun!
Tuesday:
No pics! But Daniel picked me up from my place, went to pick up Brendon. Then we went to Hurst to watch toy story 3! Also with Lawrence, Ronald, Little Darren, Jfu and Nathan. WAS SOOOOO GOOD. like amazinggg, was heaps funny and sad but happy at the same time.

Today! Friday:
Yummy yummmy eating spree with the MLC girls in stratty, like old times. Korean lunch at Beauty and the Beast, realllyyyy nice seafood pancake and bulgogi and rice in stone hot pot. Then Cafe Peaberry for dessert, I tried Rocher and Coffee this time, both were super super nice as well. Then everyone else left, so I had a nice 7/11 slurpee, Chrystal had banana milk, and Kate had a chai latte and a waffle cone LOL. like just by itself... ahhh funn girl. I miss our food fridays :(

Great start to my hols, so much more I wanna do though. Like going to Glebe, going Iceskating, maccas run, doing some more artworks, trip to nowra.... everything.

My best buys of 2010 so far.

2010-06-25T12:42:00.004+10:00

Shoe shopping is the best therapy. ever. retail therapy is THE best!
My best shoe buys of 2010:
All of theses have been at LEAST 50% off, all under $70. Bargains make me drooooooool.

From Hurstville Betts, 13 cm black studded stilettos. Bought for my party, after uni before work with Jacky.

Black zipper heels, from Lipstik, bought at DFO. Half the price they are when you buy them from Myers 8D

Bright purple peep toes boots! Was SUCH a bargain! Bought them at Wittners in The Strand, randomly after an exam with Alice, Lily and Claire.
My newest babies! Bought it at Wittners in Burwood. Grey platform pumps. BIG BIG bargain.

Makes me happy :)

Luvoing and the boys

2010-06-17T20:25:00.005+10:00

I'm so glad you guys are there to have my back. Love you guys, a LOT.

This one's for the boys, the one for the girls will be up soon i hope :)
Like always, each 'you' is a different person.

You are seriously AMAZING. You're hot and you don't know it, so naive about your own attractiveness. You make me laugh so much.
I miss you, in some ways.. I think you were a rock for me, it was so reassuring having you around, and just chatting to you.
I would trust you with my life, I know some others have their doubts, but somehow, you're one of the only ones who I can see care about me, not only know. I know you'd be there for me.
You're REALLY attractive, and funny and just brighten up my day when I see you.
Somehow, we've just clicked. Thank you for tolerating my retardedness and being super nice and helping me out when I need it :)
I enjoy gossiping with you, haha this time last year, I wouldn't have guessed that we'd talk about all this, but it's fun.
You're SUPER cute, I know I say this about alot of people, but it makes my day sometimes when I see you and I get a hug :)
Thank you for being you, although things might not be like it was, I enjoy hanging out with you and I can't help but laugh, weird because I haven't know you for that long.
I love talking to you, I know you'll be there for me to talk about all my dilemmas, and you won't judge me. I can trust you to be there when I need to emo, or rant.
Thank you for all the times you've been there to help me out of a sticky situation, I feel a hundred times safer around you, and thank you for all the mood lifting hugs i get from you :)
I love being around you, because I know that you won't judge me, you always push me to be a better me, and let me indulge in my retardedness, you do more for me than you should ever have to.
I have LOVED every moment of hanging out with you and you, we haven't known each other for that long, but you never cease to make me smile or make me feel welcome, always cracking jokes, giving me hugs, sending me texts.
Thank you for looking after her, and sorry for always being in the way or annoying!

Most of all, thank you boys for being who you are. You might not know it, but you've all made a difference in my life. And thank you for having my back, because I don't know what I'd do without you guys.

Moving on... hahahha it amuses me how many people google luvoing, so instead of studying like I should... I was taking luvos. I might regret this later... but here's a sneak peek of all those luvos I take at home, all the ones I hide when I minimise my photobooth LOL. Sorry about the lack of makeup or what not.

I HAVE A MOUSTACHE! 8D

Scrunched up face >-<

P.s I bought a pair of jeans. Weird, I feel like I might lose some of my Gina-ness, some of what makes me, me.

STUVAC.

2010-06-11T10:35:00.002+10:00

Meant to be studying.... but haven't blogged in so long.. and prob won't blog until after my finals are over.

STUVAC has been surprisingly fun... I mean it shouldn't be, and that probably isn't good for my results, but I've enjoyed chilling with people I didn't get to see much during the semester, and even with a few I did.

Monday: Hurst lib. Lunch with Daniel and Alice, then shopping which Cecil came and joined later. Back to the lib, we saw JFu and Nathan. Then work.
Tuesday: State with Brendon and JFu, then watched Nightmare on Elm St with them. Maccas. Back to state lib, met up with Alice and Cecil. More study. Then dinner. Train back to hurst, bumped into little darren and daniel.
Wednesday: Hurst lib. Ended up studying with JFu, Nathan and Brendon, and the later Derryn. Saw Jacky Li, chatted with Derryn + Kai Bing for awhile. went to work. Went back to lib, had dinner with Derryn and Daniel. the back to library to study.
Thursday: Hurst lib. Started off studying with Jacky and Derryn. Then Daniel + Joanna came, then Carol. Had lunch at Kagaya, where Bevis + Ming joined us. Back to the library, everyone dispersed. Ended up being me, Derryn and Daniel again.

wonder how my Finals will turn out... though surprisingly I HAVE done a fair bit of study. It's good having Derryn to ask about psych and bio too xD

28.05.10

2010-05-28T18:51:00.002+10:00

- Chatting to Lily Yam
- A little more than four years
- WIWWM?
- SSOUSK
- So scared of exams
- Screwed up all my uni assessments
- NSTBW
- I love my MLC girls, and the hurstville group. ♥♥♥
- Don't know what to do anymore
- STUDYSTUDY.

Homesick

2010-05-25T19:18:00.003+10:00

I'm Homesick. as Jacky puts it.
I'm so sick of all these superficial guys I'm meeting at uni. Maybe I'm just too spoilt with all the guys I normally hang out with. Like seriously, I'm not that naive to think guys don't check out girls or what not, but like can you not when I'm there? Especially if I'm the ONLY one there, like FFS I DON'T CARE and even worse, it just makes us girls think you're backstabbing us behind our backs and I don't want to hear all the shizz you're saying about me and how I look.

So homesick.
I love you guys and girls ♥♥

My 2nd 18th

2010-05-19T10:12:00.006+10:00

THANK YOU to everyone who came on saturday and partied with me =] I love you guys SO MUCH. Thank you for the super awesome presents, and just being there !
Moments I remember:
- Jamie wearing my high heels
- Me dropping and breaking a bottle of Bailey's =[
- Lawrence headbutting me and me landing on my bum
- Sitting on the ping pong table while the boys played beer pong
- Marxy telling me that my hair caught on fire when I was blowing out my candles
- Me trying to shove in my candles upside down and getting frustrated when it wouldn't stay inn
- Watching people spin around then stacking it
- People telling me off for not taking my shoes off
- Making people take photos with me. A lot of photos. I'm even more into luvoing when I'm wooo
- Brendon being GGed by the alki
- Being in my garage while llama boy was singing
- Lawrence/llame/joel/andrew yuen/jasson singing I'm yours, and Baby at the end of the night

BIG shout outs to emilieeeee for helping me while we were frantically setting up, love you!
Alice&Cecil for the awesome cupcakes.. !
Bevis for the yummmmy cheesecake!
everyone how was looking out for me =]

my awesome bestie =] stunned mullets!

hahhah jacky liyay! most people in the group photo! (love joel hahhha)
luvoing!
me and most of the MLC girls
with chef and cake =]
me and my sexy amy lin
hehe with one of my favourite couples
masterchef-ing!
LOL this one makes me laugh. So excited

Also credits to amy for some of the photos!

Loves

2010-05-09T15:52:00.001+10:00

Days since last blogs. happy happy times =]

shinara bar and grill
hahahaha andrew yuen scratching joel's head

jenny's 17th =]
the uni kids.

the pretty bday girl
keith's farewell in whoop whoop
i miss this kid =[

alice's 18th bbq!
i love this girl
keith's mini farewell in stratty

nat ma's 18th
love love love love

3 hours til i'm 19.
scared crapless

..and then everything goes down hill.

2010-05-04T22:33:00.003+10:00

I swear, two days ago, I was on top of the world, but now.. in so many aspects, life has all gone downhill. After my assessments this week, I PROMISE I'll do a happy blog with photos and luvos and what not. But at the moment... so much seems crap.

1. Keith is leaving so very very soon, far out I'm going to miss you SO much, like an insane amount. Wish you didn't have to leave.. but all the best for med, my dear!
2. Assessments... they're killing me, I'm drowning.
3. A lack of sleep due to assessments which then leads to crappy looks and crappy feelings.
4. A lack of money, have been spending too much.
5. Turning 19 soon, I'm dreading the day.
6. I'm so sick of work, but I need the money. I'm spending all this time at work.. when I should be finishing my assessments.
7. I've been losing a lot of hair >.>
8. Getting previous assessments back, I've done so crap or average in all of them. My chances of transferring into nutrition are fading before my eyes.
9. I don't know where I stand with you, I want to go with the flow... yet... I'm still unsatisfied.
10. I'm jealous.

=[

2010-05-03T15:03:00.000+10:00

will blog after my assessment period!
drowninggggg at the moment!

p.s had a lovely weekend, happy birthday to alice ho once again. and also to joeyyyy!

i hate.

2010-04-23T16:49:00.000+10:00

i hate the way things turn awkward.
i hate how people make things so obvious, but it's human nature.
i hate it when people hate me.
i hate that feeling of not being good enough.
i hate self doubt.
i hate uni.
i hate feeling like a loser. always.
i hate how things never work the way you want it to.
i wish i were someone else for a day.

Time.

2010-04-18T16:15:00.002+10:00

The other day, Fob Adrian asked me how I manage to go uni, study, go out and work, so I was thinking about that. It's not because I have amazing time management abilities, because trust me I SUCK, but I think it's because I'm not in a relationship. I'm not saying being in a relationship is a bad thing, cause for the majority of the time it's not, and sometimes I'm insanely jealous of people in a relationship. But, I feel that relationships can consume a lot of time, times where you want to see each other and spend time with each other, time spent talking to or chatting to your special other.. and I guess.. because I don't have that privilege it allows me to spend that time doing other things. Just a thought.

Also, I saw this webcomic, and I thought it was strangely true. Your own perception vs. others' perceptions, I wonder how different they are.
Credit to viruscomix.com
Click to enlarge

End of Mid Sem

2010-04-11T10:53:00.003+10:00

Mid Sem's almost over, Uni tomorrow. Really wish we had a longer break. Mid Sem's been so good.
Thurs: BSOC
Sun: Hot Pot at Kate's
Tues: Work then City with Jacky
Weds: Work
Thurs: Lib and lunch with Rebecca
Sat: Work then Shiva's
Today: Little cousin's bday at my place.

productive study with llama + rebecca

I was SO bummed yesterday that I couldn't make Lily's 18th. Sorry my dear =[ Yesterday was work, celebrated my grandma's bday, work, shiva's afterwards. Work was the thing ever. A 30 person booking, but they gave us wrong numbers so we re-arranged the tables and stuff like a billion times. There were 13 kids and they were all loud and running around and I'm glad my sisters aren't like that. Seriously, like the food hadn't even starting coming out yet.. and this kid threw up everywhere. I have no idea what he threw up.. but I was like.. GG to my night. It was a nonstop 5 hours of work, and I dont even get paid for it. Hannah texted me, and I was even more super annoyed I couldn't go tonight. Oh wells. Hope you had a great time girls, will make it up to you lily! I think my parents felt really bad that I was missing out, so mum drove me to Shiva's afterwards.

It was a good ending to my crap night. Didn't know many people, but it was ok, everyone seemed super nice and met people who knew people I knew, or people who remembered me from ditching Ruse in yr 10... or have facebook stalked me. And it was really good seeing Aditi again, like first time in almost a year! An amusing time. Thanks Shiva!

luvoing with aditi + easy way guy =]
i look like i'm glowing xD

birthday boy! (note: my redness increases in those photos O_o')
Happy birthday to my dears, Lily and Shiva. LOVE LOTS

Confused

2010-04-08T10:09:00.003+10:00

I'm so confused now. I don't know how I feel or what I want anymore. Guess I can only go with the flow.

Sunday was so good just chilling with the girls. I miss those days where I'd see the MLC girlies 5 or 6 times a week, even when we did nothing, it'd still be the highlight of my day. Hot Pot was reminiscent of our Coffs Harbour Trip. The luvoing, the chilling, the insane singing, the food and the best company =] Chilling at Unibar, karaoking and drinks for Hannah's birthday and hot pot at Kate's. I miss you girls SO MUCH.

Tuesday, Jacky and I went to passionflower. And we had some Easter special and it was SUPER yummy. Like chocolate galore... mmmmm. You can never go wrong with ice cream and chocolate... unless you're Hannah =P Thank you for shouting, you sneaky one.

And of course, I wouldn't be Gina without the luvos.

Luvoing at Kate's
luvoing in market city

YUMMY !
luvoing on the way home 8D

Lucky.

2010-04-04T09:23:00.002+10:00

BSOC Cruise made me realise how extremely lucky I am. and how much i appreciate all my friends looking out for me. All night I had people helping me to carry my stuff, holding on to me as i was boarding/leaving the boat, holding my hand as we made our way through the crowds, making sure I was ok, helping me find my bag at the end, helping me up, warding off sleazy guys, It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

My MLC girls have always been there for me to lean on, they know EVERYTHING about me. I know they'll never judge me. They've been there to give me hugs when I'm down, fill me up with food, for me to squeal with over celebs, celebrated with me when I was happy, listened to me rant til their ears drop off and support me however they could.

My bestie has always been there to cover my tracks, listen to my endless rants about family or what not, force me to make decisions, just to chill with, look after me when I'm sick and help me shop haha. Man we've gone through so much.

The hurstville/caringbah group, not sure it CAN be called the caringbah group anymore.. too many of us randoms have popped up and tagged along. You guys make me smile, drive me places when I need, fulfill my hug cravings, provide me with new experiences, created heaps of memories, gossiped with me, stuck by my side even when I was a cow and looked out for me/had my back.

You, have made such a difference in my life. You make me smile, endure my retardness, looked after me and seeing around just brightens my day, I'm going to miss you.

You have gone out of your way to look after me so much, done things you didn't need to. Thank you for making sure I was ok, for boosting me up when I was in a puddle of low self esteem.

You make me smile sooo much when I see you, your hugs are insane and I'm never down when I'm around you, I'm glad we get to see each other now.

You have always looked out for me, kept me safe and be an all round awesome friend. What you've done for me has really touched me.

You always listen to me babble on about retarded stuff that I'm not sure even makes sense, but thank you for giving me advice and making sense of things for me.

You always care for me, in ways that aren't obvious, but I pick them up, and I love you even more for it. Thank you for being a mega sweetie.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who's been there for me, looked after me, hugged me, made me smile. I love you guys so much, more than I can express. I didn't wanna give names, because there are so many more people I wanna thank, and I didn't wanna leave anyone out. I just hope you guys really know how much you mean to me. <3

Party it up =]

2010-04-02T13:06:00.003+11:00

The past week or so has been GREAT.
Finally saw most of the MLC girls at Hannah's 18th. I've missed these girls SO MUCH. Missed our karaoke craziness. Had a good time, karaoke and happy meals and bars. thank you babe ! lots of drinks makes hannah LOUD haha.

Weds night we went out for Kevin's 18th. Starcity garden buffet then gambling. It was good, met this guy Randal, who i've had on msn/fb for like yearrrs. but never met, only talked to online like once... haha was odd. the boys all gambled, some won some, some lost some.

Then last night was BSOC cruise, was so amusing =] We went to Aolin's shop to change, and Linh and I had a little panic moment, when my zipper wouldn't work and her shoe strap stuffed up... we had to call the boys in, luckily they both got fixed in the end. I attracted many odd stares whilst walking around the city and myers food court in my outfit, but it was all good. Cutest waitress was like are u a beee? you look beautiful! biggest cutie haha. it was sooooo good seeing everyone, i think i stole a billlion hugs last night. it was like HEY ITS YOU AGAIN *HUG*. it was fun =] like we weren't even on the boat yet.. and these two guys came up to me and were like JULIET JULIET JULIET.... looked at me and were like OH SHIIIII that's not Juliet, and ran off. this happened twice with the same guys =/

there were a few incidences of guys trying to pick me up. but, unfortunately for them, i wasn't interested. there were lots of sleazy people, but it was fun just to dance and hang out with friends. haha at some point i was dancing with a group of people i knew.. like carol, amy, robbie, jasson etc. and then suddenly they left one by one.. and i was left with a group of random guys i didn't know =.=' the guy in front of me, and the guy on my side were trying to get me to dance with them.. but i was just like *ignoreignore* and eventually just walked off.

but it was a gooood night. big shout outs to everyone who took care of me last night =] thank you my dears! cbb to write more about last night. don't wanna see the official pics, i generally looked really gross in photos last night.

Quick update.

2010-03-20T20:57:00.003+11:00

I should blog more often, otherwise there's no point. but here's some quick pictures.

Bangle fixation at bec's 18th

Whitley/MLC buddies. yoyo's 18th

some sneaky luvoing ;) bec's 18th

lovely ladies at yoyo's 18th

with fiona + oawi 17/03/10

nts: need to buy more -
*nailpolishes *nailpolish remover *bangles *dresses *skirts *shoesssssssssssssssssss

current craving:
A CARAMELLO KOALA!!

memories:
-remember when we followed that good smelling guy awkwardly around hk esprit?
-remember when we had the oh so yummy thai takeaway at coffs?
-remember when we were playing soccer and i got tripped over, then hit on the head by the ball while i was sitting on the ground?

Exhaustion

2010-03-18T20:35:00.002+11:00

So what's been happening since last thurs..... it's been physically and mentally exhausting. so much work and crap hours.

Fri: Fail play date. Stupid people didn't come, was only me, em, jfu, llama, keith.. and then llama had to go class and keith had a dentist appt. so me, em, jfu went shopping afterwards. highlight was buying bangles =D and pigging out on ice cream and wedges.. mmmm. went to em's place afterwards.. was good chilling, AND I actually did some work.

Sat: Bec's birthday dinner. was a gooood night. had my drinks stolen, but i enjoyed them. good company, a bit of a hectic organisation beforehand for me + em, but it turned out all good. thank you bec for the great night. me, em, jfu, sooey, kevin then walked in the city in the pouring rain with no umbrellas, we were soaked but it wasn't too bad. thank you jfu lots and lots for the the lift home. love muchlies.

Sun: Tutored in the morning, the boys are uber cute. Then little sister's birthday party, saw em again. =D 3 days in a row! so many little girls at my house, was bullied too. and SOOO MUCH food. i swear i didn't eat like for 12 hrs after that. so bloated.

Mon: back to uni. nothing interesting really. enjoyed company from johnson + jamie in psych lecture. jo + kiara in biostats, linda + lily in bio, no one in chem =[, glenda in calc tute. i guess the company's goooood =] tutored in the arvo, once again adorable kids. Exhausting night.

Tues: Was soooo tired. i really enjoy psych tutes, probs the only tute where i can actually talk to people, and know a few already. jo, derryn, sarah.. then made friends with some others =] i HATE chem prac tho, like with a passion, and i can't skip them. met up with fob kevin, brendon, em, jfu afterwards... went book shopping, then to eat, then watched the boys play pool. fob kevin is SO GOOD. skipped chem lecture, went back for psych.

Weds: tutored from 12:30-6, then went with chris' gf + fiona out.. were gonna go to lady gaga. but long story cut short, scalper looked dodgey, didn't wanna waste chris' $600 so decided to go elsewhere. had dessert which was super yummy, went to lumiere apartments, SO PRETTY. was a good night nonetheless.

Today: fav+ sheree in maths1011, had the giraweens as company in my break, carol in bio prac and we have a nice group which is good =], heaps of company in psych: carol, jo, derryn, anthony etcetc, had a break again and bumped into sam... ended up going to fisher to work, then chem tute and maths tute were super boring, no one to talk to.

the 8am lectures are taking a lot of energy out of me, this is so exhausting.

and I'M CRAVING A MACCAS RUN SO BAD!

Normality

2010-03-11T19:31:00.003+11:00

I guess I'm getting into the swing of things now, not that I particularly love uni though. I miss not having to wake up at 6am every morning, having a group of friends to muck about with, not having to think about what to wear. But, I'm starting to figure out my way around, despite walking into the wrong building today. And I'm starting to be able to hang out with more people. Less lengthy breaks are good too. Participated in two psych experiments today to get credit towards my psych course, was interesting in a way I guess. Was weird having someone measure my height and weight but.

Apparently I am now 166cm, which is weird, but it makes my BMI go down, which I'm loving =D Psych tutorial on Tues was fun, actually knew people in it. I enjoy bumping into people I know, but I'm still missing my MLC girls + the Hurstville group an insane amount. I'm so numb with my feelings now, after effects of being so emotional for the past years I guess. Was weird that you called today, wonder if I let it, what would have happened.

Starting to really enjoy working at the Brain on Wednesdays now, cause the other girls + Fei are there and I get to chat and teach and mark. Sundays and Mondays aren't as fun cause I don't see the others.

The second week of Uni's coming to an end, weird that we're not in high school anymore.

p.s lady gaga!!!!!!

one more door closed.

2010-03-09T18:14:00.001+11:00

I have finally closed the door on that chapter of my life. I'm glad, I don't feel the need to keep up pretenses anymore. You should have taken action earlier, maybe that would have helped me. In a way, I miss that time and I regret. But I'm glad it's over.

Big thanks to Alice and Hannah for always listening to me rant =]

more uni.

2010-03-08T23:06:00.000+11:00

it's kind of weird. everyone's making friendships, and my friends are meeting each other. and i'm kind of just hanging here. i miss you guys like crazy. so many regrets. but iunno, uni's not as great for me as i expected.

uni.

2010-03-02T19:53:00.003+11:00

uni has started... and it's weird... everything's changed so much. i dont want to make new friends, i want my old friends. take me back to high school. the good times are fading.

I can't stop thinking about you..

2010-02-21T18:21:00.002+11:00

Oh photobooth how i've missed you...

Do you remember those times in the common room where we bummed on the ground.. much at the confusion of everyone else?
Do you remember when you walked with me in the rain, you holding the umbrella we were sharing?
Do you remember not giving me your headphones? LOL
Do you remember sitting on heshi's wharf.. sitting, talking and tanning?
Do you remember when i called you on the phone, and cried and cried and cried?
Do you remember photoboothing nonstop and having the time of our lives?
Do you remember sitting in the common room, pigging out on icecream and candy?
Do you remember sitting in the quiet room, giggling furiously but trying to be quiet?
Do you remember canoeing 40km and biking 60km.. all practically up hill?
Do you remember coming out of your way to visit me before chem tutoring?
Do you remember denying that you were korean.. and not realising until i looked at you?
Do you remember when i kissed you? I had butterflies in my stomach
Do you remember all piling onto the seesaw at stratty park?
Do you remember our fattyy food fridays?
Do you remember canadian's cutest moment, crying on her birthday?
Do you remember us piled onto the floor and couch, sighing and squealing over boys over flowers?
Do you remember the best fun run ever? whitley for the win =]
Do you remember turning around and looking at me, and just giving me a hug? I started falling for you then..
Do you remember coming to the library with me, and we just photoboothed the heck out of the afternoon?
Do you remember our flemington market group?
Do you remember throwing the ball at me at bball.. and me missing cos i was doing my hair? LOL

so many memories.. will jot them down on my blog as i go... i never want to forget...
i ain't gina without the luvos.

Hot Pot Night

2010-02-18T07:57:00.004+11:00

Last night was unexpectedly the best night I've had in awhile. It showed me how much I missed some of the people who turned up, although I may not be particularly have been close to them. I couldn't resist it and had to steal some hugs. So many more people turned up than I expected, I think there were around 24 of us, so kudos to llama + brendon.. kind of anyways. Great cure for loneliness.

Had awesome dinner company, some of my beloveds =] the food was good, didn't get force fed by daniel this time.. thank goodness. but i bet you the waiters were super peeved at us.. we were so rowdy and annoying and noob hahahaha. i just sat and mostly soaked up everything.. snapping heaps of pictures.. ended up with like 100.. but didn't upload half. too many 'mowe liw' pictures. ahhhh i love you guys. hahaha and the chilli eating competitions... could not stop laughing.. jfu vs. brendon, and sue vs. llama.. why did the girls win in both cases? so many cute pairings too... ahhh... i love times like this.. just a big mass of people. unfortunately didnt' get to talk to half the people i wanted to.. but it's ok, was seated with amazing people too.

and alice... zomg... way to be subtle LOL. and when i was on phone.. and u and cecil both turned around and cracked up.. self conscious to the max! ah wells... was a good night! tho we were missing some people on the night.. and thanks to cecil.. for driving me home again!

sometimes i feel like i went to caringbah... but i will alwaysALWAYSALWAYS be a MLC girl.

spicy and non-spicy

SUPER CUTIES

feel his chilli painmy lovelies

also had lunch with alice,cecil,brendon on weds... enjoyed chilling. bumped into em.. then later bumped into walnut.. again. then it was so relaxing just sitting and watching the guys play bball.. despite being attacked by mozzies. haven't felt so... cheerful? in a while.. not sure if that's the right word or not... but nothing had to be so hectic...

most awesome phone wallpapers ever. jfu's, little darren's, lawrence's

but i need to partyyyy as well. please someone have a party soon =P

Love&&Money

2010-02-14T14:53:00.006+11:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
&
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY/ SINGLES APPRECIATION DAY =D

dont worry singles... we're freeeee to mingle!
*sits here wallowing in envy of all the cute couples*

Last Chance Saloon

2010-02-13T00:35:00.002+11:00

'The only consolation lay in looking at sexy, funky shoes. Shoes were the fat woman's friend. Shoes still looked beautiful when all else had gone to hell.....'

early rant

2010-02-10T09:02:00.003+11:00

i hate it when guys ditch you for the next pretty skinny girl who comes along, what.. does our friendship mean nothing?
i may not be cute or pretty or skinny or outrageously funny or 'natural' or socially terrific.
but that doesnt mean i shouldnt be respected or that our friendship shouldnt be resepected.
i dont ditch you for the next cute guy i see, so dont ditch me.

Blobs

2010-02-08T22:12:00.004+11:00

it's just kind of lonely.
i miss seeing everyone..
you're starting to open up my heart.. but i want to close it.. because i dont want to go through that again.
i'm sick of gymworkhomegymworkhome.
more than halfway to losing all my hsc kilos.. but not yet halfway to my goal.
i hate having to work whilst everyone else is going out.
i miss you.
i would swap all my shoes just to see my friends and not have to work.
i'm aching to go shopping.
i dont want uni to start
do i mean anything to you anymore?
i don't know how to tell you how much you mean to me.
i feel so drained.
icecream session anyone?

lazy.

2010-01-25T22:05:00.002+11:00

epically late 2009 photo post in the process of being made.
sorry.

here's a clothing/shoes/accessories blog instead =]
freak i love shoes so much... gahh i want more... (size 8.5-9 for any people reading this who wanna buy me high heels *winkwinknudgenudge* LOL kiddings. but seriously.)

was checking out modcloth.com

Barracuda Booties $44.99

Windy City Dress $64.99

Rented Tux Heels $94.99

Warms the Heart Vest $32.99

Chemistry Tutor Vest $29.99

yuck at the name... but i have a thing for vests, and braiding

Stick Your Neck Out Earrings $11.99

High School Sweethearts Earrings $11.99

I also have a thing for pretty much anything love heart shaped.

Age of Industry Ring $14.99

A ring that looks like layers of bangles, it's love.

Waxing Crescent Earrings $11.99

The White Straps Belt $19.99

The Lita Clutch in Fender $47.99

Naturally Chic Bag $239.99

Lucky Star Dress in Rock $79.99

Postal Service Dress $64.99

Gala Darling Dress $69.99

Don't Just Fade Away Dress $54.99

Black and White Cookie Tunic $39.99

note: all prices are in USD. does not include shipping fees

swoons

2010-01-01T05:12:00.002+11:00

Said goodbye to 2009 with boy'z and mike he. Said hello to 2010 with danson tang. They all looked bloody fantastic, MUCH better in real life than on cam. SO DAMN CUTE. will upload pics + vids when i get back to syd. like i'm so happy.. in a state of bliss. danson sang in english and it was SO FREAKING GOOD. *SWOON* update more later.

Thank you to all my lovelies who made 2009 GREAT. looking forward to seeing you in 2010!

In HK

2009-12-30T12:58:00.002+11:00

Quick update.
in HK at the moment and i am so freaking frustrated with being sick. literally been vomitting more than i've eaten. it's making me super homesick for my friends and like i dunno. hk's good... meeting up with ppl and stuff. but at this point i'd much rather be in sydney.

some one buy me a plane ticket back home. and give me a new stomach.

Farewell

2009-12-19T07:18:00.002+11:00

Me and Emily are off on our adventure today.
Not sure if I have net access, but send me emails! Haha and if you're in HK, email me your no. so we can meet up! And if you're still in aust and wanting a postcard... email me your address. I'm not really that excited at the moment, just cos I'm gonna miss everyone. But it'll be all good. You're gonna miss your doses of Gina-awesomeness for a month.

Keep safe and have fun.
Love Gina

Reaping what I deserve.

2009-12-16T15:28:00.000+11:00

Seriously considering redoing year 12. Will see after tomorrow.

12122OO9

2009-12-13T17:30:00.007+11:00

Last night, was one of the best nights ever! I really regret having had to leave like 4 hours early though...

Me, fi, daniel, brendon, cecil and jasonfu caught the bus from hurst to city.. and we ended up going to fi's friends bday dinner. it was kinda awkward in the beginning lol.. 'oo how do u know crystal?' 'uhhh.... we don't... BUT our friend does!' but it was still good haha.. dinner with friends is awesome.. hahaha and the cheapest drink out of all us.. HAS to be cecil =P went bright red after like... not even a third of his beer.. daniel left early to sneak into verandah lol..

so the rest of us went to blackbird.. bought some drinks and sat there and chatted for a while and all that jazz... was good.. =) kept walking down to verandah... haha and we were all pretty much broke by this point...

got to verandah.. bumped into bevis , carmen and co... small world =) and lined up for awhile.. got in.. got free cloak room and all that.. cos we were there @ opening.. it was pretty much empty when we went it.. but it was good! hahahha it was hilarious.. me, fi and daniel? were sitting on a table... then this guy came up to me.. and started dancing.. and made a heart with his fingers... and daniel pushed me up.. so i was dancing with him.. and it was funny... he was just like holding onto my hands and twirling me and stuff.. and it was all cool... then he started grinding into me and stuff.. but i still found it hilarious... and i could see fi and daniel motioning at me lol.. then he leans in and goes to me 'mmmm have u been naughty? i think i'm going to have to spank u...' then thank godddd... jason the lifesaver came and got me out ! thank u lovely! love u long time!

but i still find the whole thing pretty hilarious lolol.. met some ruse guys.. and we were all dancing together in a group.. like us + bevis and co + the ruse guys.. was fun! too bad i had to leave so early... but thank u HEAPS to brendon for taking me back.. and sorrrrrrrrry! interesting walk to town hall tho.. i went barefoot hahaha... gg-ed tho.. cut my foot on something =_= so work today was slightly painful REALLY REALLY wish i could have stayed tho.. but mum mega raged at me.. wish i had more freedom..

me and fi before dinner.. she's freaking gorgeous
oreo crunches!

the group minus daniel.. LOVE THIS PHOTO SO MUCH ... lol @ brendon thogot lazy... can't write any more.. but as cecil said... a picture's worth a thousand words.. so i've written u an essay already!

Formal and Farewell

2009-12-10T08:49:00.002+11:00

The MLC formal, I don't think there's a word to sum it up.
But I freaking love you girls, thank you for making the night so memorable. I think all you girlies are beautiful, inside AND out. Thank you for sharing the special night with me.

Not in the mood to blog.. maybe redo this post later.

I'm sorry, I don't know why, but I truly am.

No motivation.

2009-12-05T22:57:00.004+11:00

I've been having a lack of motivation to blog. Not sure why... haha i think people have gotten sick of my lazy photo blogs, so probs not gonna photo depict the last couple of outings i've been on.
The double darren's dinner was aweeeeeomse
EPIC three metres of pizza. It was funn with all the boys and a few of us girls. I think that could have fed us, (aka the awesomer table) for like 3 meals. I'm amazed at everyone's skills.... kept eating pizza lol.

Also, had a syd girls + st george girls brain dinner.. i was kinda random but was good =/ kudos to chris! kobe jones dinner bill was over $1000.. haha probs half of it was drinks/mocktails, and then dessert @ passion flower.. yummmm. had fun hanging with some of the brain girls.. and the romantic darling harbour fireworks ! envy all u cute cute couples out there.

mmmm this week was less eventful... dinner with some more hurst ppl... me and rebecca went on a romantic stroll thru chinatown.. which was good! then we had dinner @ a krn bbq place.. food wasn't that great.. but it was good just chillling... and less clumsy this time which was good XD

P.S thanks to bevis for his awesome driving hahaha.. he's now fi's bro on green P's and my mum... funny.. sitting in the back seat and suddenly VOOOOM me and rebecca have hair flying everywhere. =] ty!

Heaps of ppl are overseas at the moment, and I'm really starting to miss some people! People I havent' seen in awhile, people overseas, people who make me smile just thinking abotu them, the MLC girls, and people I've talked to recently.. but still miss.

formal + speech night/day coming up girls! plans for thurs?

The days go past.

2009-12-02T20:42:00.004+11:00

My days since caringbah formal:
20th- 5 hours waitressing
21st- 3 hours working at Little Swan
22nd- 3 hours working at Little Swan
23rd- Gym in the morning, the double darren's 18th at night
24th- 8 hours working at IFOCUS
25th- Gym
26th- 4 hours of tutoring at The Brain
27th- 9.5 hours waitressing
28th- Gym in the morning, 7 hours at IFOCUS, The Brain dinner at night
29th- 2.5 hours working at Little Swan, 2 hrs tutoring at The Brain
30th- Gym
31st- 8 hours working at IFOCUS
1st- SHOPPPPING

need to gym more =/
weird how most guys i know are going gym to tank up and gain weight, whilst i'm gymming to lose weight.

it's horrible, i've been trying REALLY hard. Gym sessions, no eating after 8pm, eating less, resisting desserts (besides free ones like @ the brain dinner), walking everywhere instead of car, not eating junk foods, drinking only water... and i've only lost like 1.5kg. the most i let myself go was at coffs, and still i resisted then. i hate this so much, it's so hard. it's like.. what's the point when i still look the same.

anyways, kinda dreading our formal at the moment.. not sure why.. i was excited before... but after last night... and stuff.. i'm just not looking forward to it as much. the formal hype is over.

Over or not.

2009-11-29T20:22:00.001+11:00

I thought it was all over, but it's not. There's always a bit of you that hangs on to something like that. But everytime people say something or ask, it's like mocking my failure. This week has been full of people asking me, literally like 4 people, when they saw me, the first thing out of their mouths was about it. It hurts, even though it's all over. WHY CAN'T YOU GET OVER IT? why are people so in love with it.

lol. everyone's enthusiasm for blogs like died post-hsc.
will update better soon. i'm sorry, blogs haven't been interesting lately.

This Week.

2009-11-20T15:42:00.004+11:00

Photo depiction of my week.

CBF's 18th!
Thanks for the best night guys, love you all. Fionna looked gorgeous, and both cecil and bevis scrubbed up well. Was good meeting new people, and taking photos with people and I LOVED all the hugs I stole.
Highlights:
-'I'm alright guys! I'm alright!'
- Ogre guy
- Seeing everyone

Coffs Harbour:
It was the greatest time chilling with all my girls. We need to do it more often!
Highlights:
- Boys Over Flowers: squealing and 'awwwing' over the guys... LOVE Gu Jun Pyo, Ji Hoo and Yi Jung? Ji Yung? meh
-Chilling by the pool
-Talking to Richard.. LOL kate =P
-Spending time with all the girls
-The candy store
-D&Ms

Some photos, credit to alice

The Caringbah Formal:
All you guys and girls looked GORGEOUS. Blew my mind. Thanks Brendon for inviting me. I wish I took more pics, but awwww. Dancing was sweaty and yuck, but still fun. Stay beautiful girls!

Some photos, credit to Alice, Fionna and silvercity.

Truths and Lies

2009-11-13T23:11:00.002+11:00

It's like that game you play at camp sometimes. You guess which ones are the lies, and which ones are the truths.

I disgust myself so much, I can't bear to look at myself in the mirror anymore.
I don't want to go to C.H anymore.
I can't stand working 8 hour days and then coming home to babysit anymore.
I have two swollen ankles, making it difficult to walk.. and especially difficult to walk up stairs/ stand on tip toes/ or jump.
I don't deserve to go to C.F
I cannot find my BOS pin.
No one makes me feel safe anymore.
I used to be bulimic and nobody knew, but now I'm not, I wish I still was.
I fall asleep at my laptop, and always regret it the next morning when I see the conversations that pop up.
I hate the feeling of being replaced.
I think about how it would be like if I died, maybe a freak tragedy then wonder if they would have good things to write in the newspapers, or if I'd just be a disappointment.
I don't want my sisters to turn out how I did.
I don't think love at first sight will ever happen to me.
I love late night phone calls that talk about nothing but everything.
I secretly hate being around guys who are skinnier than I.
I wish you knew how much I sacrificed for you.
I hate it everytime you break a promise, because you break my heart.
I wish you cared.
I love sad movies that make me cry, cos finally I'm crying for something else that's not about me.

I would not fight to keep you, because I know you'd be happier with someone else.

Jobs- Pros and Cons

2009-11-12T07:58:00.005+11:00

At the moment it's so weird. So as you may or may not know, I now have a job. My days aren't determined yet, because at the moment I'm taking over for the regular, but it'll be like this until like february. And then I've got a more permanent job on sundays, at a different place. I guess it's good, cos I'm finally earning money and both jobs will look good on my CV and all that. But it's weird, cos at the same time it's kinda annoying, cos I'm watching all my friends go out and do stuff... that I'm itching to do, but instead I'm stuck at work. it's like 'heyyyy u wanna go out and do something', 'i can't, i have work ><"' Cos I'm literally working 6 days a week at the moment, 10-6 on weekdays, 10-5 on saturday and 12-4 on sunday.

Blah, though I guess I'm lucky that I even have a job, let alone ones where they came and found me, not the other way around.

On another note, yesterday (my day off) was good, just chilling with people, watching a movie then dinner. Seeing people that I feel like I haven't seen in ages, stealing hugs, eating, chatting, and all that, was so good. Mao's Last Dancer was good, haha but alice.. you have to stop amusing yourself by watching me cry. Dinner was really nice as well, besides from the abuse. HAG was reunited haha, much love.

Seriously painful photo. Abuse!

Linda's on sunday was also awesome haha, i loveeee you girls! haha everyone looked so pretty dressed up.. and throw in our asianness + 2pm cake + nice food + card + photos = awesome time. Thanks ling!

Before the decapitation

She decapitated them =(
Wish I could work less, go out more. I need to get away from home.

Looking forward to in the immediate future:
-Tonight
-CBF's
-Coffs Harbour
-Caringbah formal

Jiro is freaking sexy.

2009-11-05T20:00:00.005+11:00

Chicks before dicks, there's no truer motto. Most of the guys I know just aren't worth it, ones who take you and your emotions for granted, and don't appreciate you. So instead, here's to the perfect guy, I would marry him in an instant. What better way to celebrate the end of HSC then to perve on Jiro's hottness?

mmmmmm his arms look so yummy.. he's cute, he's hot, he's sweet, he sings.... yummo.

So, eff you.

And this is the end of an era.

2009-11-02T20:07:00.003+11:00

So, I've finally finished my HSC, and to be honest I'm not as elated as I thought I'd be. It's the feeling that I know I've screwed up, and being scared that I won't be able to make the course I want, and knowing that everyone's got such high expectations of me. But it's over, and I wish you guys&&girls who haven't finished, the best of luck.

First post-HSC celebration, baking banana bread, and of course it'd be incomplete without the ritual luvoing. I apologise for the gross gross post-HSCness, but baking was top priority over looking presentable haha. Though I'd make the pics better by adding some cuteness, and influential Gina posing.

What has been looming ahead is finally here.

2009-10-19T17:23:00.000+11:00

1. GOOD LUCK GUYS&&GIRLS! i believe in u all.. u will all ace the HSC (or IB). so stop checking my blog for updates in the blogroll hahaha
2. Stuff you adsense.
3. I will see you again on the 2nd of Nov. Will try to remain sane til then.

LOVE YOU LOTS

Singalongsong

2009-10-10T23:21:00.003+11:00

Thanks to all those people who've given me words of comfort or advice or support.
Particularly, rebecca for the blog and keith for the call and all my commenters.. much LOVE

totally in love with khalil fong's song 'singalongsong' at the moment and also just his 'orange moon' album in general. keeping me sane and working through the hsc

listening to singalongsong.. which is in eng btw...
these lyrics just kinda stood out to me.. don't ask why... they just did =)

'Cos' I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

In everyway you mean more to me
than you'll ever know
girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words sing
so we could write our own romance'

I love it, unrequited love, wishful thinking, romance... it's all there =]
super cute =)

study hard guys, take breaks, drink lots of water, eat well, keep healthy.. gar yowe! love u all <3

Going Insane.

2009-10-06T19:03:00.003+11:00

I seriously seriously seriously am envious of those girls who can act so naturally around guys, and just seem to naturally appeal to guys. I'm not sure if a lot of girls feel this way, or if its a handicap from coming from an all girls' school. But I know talking to people from our group, spending so many years namely around girls every day makes it difficult to socialise with guys. There are a few of my friends who are such guy magnets, seriously, so many guys fall head over heels for them and yet they are seemingly oblivious.

Heaps of guys tell me it's cause they're so natural, the girls are just themselves. But I find that so fucking hard to do. People are always like, who cares what they think? Just be yourself, wear jeans whatever whatever.. and i can see it when someone's judging me... going why the fuck are u wearing a dress/ skirt? But you know what.. cos i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE how i look, i HATE the way i look in jeans, emphasises my thunder thighs. it may not make sense to u, but u don't see what i see in the mirror. it may sound ironic, but i'm not confident enough to wear jeans. i don't mind being the messenger, the reliable one or whoever, i'm just so jealous.

i'm boring, and don't show my personality.. because i don't want to be judged. when i'm around guys, i tend to quieten down... i don't want to say anything stupid and for them to do what the fuck? i don't eat around guys. and i'm always always always so self conscious about my fatty areas around guys. ppl are always saying WHO CARES?! THE ONLY PPL WHO MATTER ARE THOSE WHO DON'T JUDGE U ON HOW U LOOK BUT ACCEPT U FOR WHO U ARE. but i can't even accept who i am, i don't want other people to see me how i see me. and i know there are ppl out there who hate it when i emo rant, and get all freaking emotional. tbh i hate it too... but i just can't help it. i try to stop, i try not to show this side of me. but something just tipped me over the top.

and it's funny... cos i've come to realise.. when someone throws me an insult about being fat or ugly or being a man... i don't make comebacks... because i secretly think it's true, and even if they were joking.. there's always a truth behind it. i don't mind that they joke with me and say things like that, i just wish i could naturally have a comeback cos i know they're joking.

i feel so stupid, so naive. and everyone else knew before me.
i love u girls <3

Happyyy 18th Birthday Emilee! & doing the Gina Pose

2009-10-02T07:52:00.003+10:00

Happy 18th Birthday Emilieeeee!!!!!!

Officially an adult! Now you're 18, we can officially go party it up together! (after the HSC of course). And we've moved through childhood to adolescence and adults together! LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!

Ok, so I haven't been blogging lately, so here's another set of 'you's:

Wishes you a happy birthday! and love you lots and lots and lots even tho we rarely see each other anymore.
Thinks you are the biggest flirt
Thanks you, you, you, you, you and you for a great time, wasn't productive but I enjoyed it.
Will miss ALL of you, Year 12 '09.
Believes in you, and is so proud of you for getting it.
Has a bone to pick with you, a small one, but you HAVE to do it.
Even though we haven't talked in ages, I feel like we've been 'reunited' and I think you're adorable.
Thank you for always making me feel welcome and that I 'belong'.
Thank YOU for helping me make me the person I am today.

and haha... unknowingly to me... somehow the 'Gina Pose' as it's been dubbed.. has become epidemic. and it's awesome haha, i love it.
I seriously don't know why or how it's spread woohoo!
I'm considering making a new banner with the 'gina pose' and just a collection of photos of people doing it. So send me photos of u doing it =P

Here's how to do it:
1. Get camera ready to luvo.
2. Pout
3. Looking away from the camera, upwards and towards the side.

and you're doing the Gina!

Here's a few of my fav Gina Pose photos =)

Hottest 'MLC' girls out yo!

Caringbah has been hit by my Gina-ness. Daniel fails.
LOL i love this one.. cos it was MEANT to be a Gina Pose photo.. but everyone failed... ESPECIALLY CLAIRE

and my all time fav one =)
going from st george christian, to mlc, to caringbah... heck yeh!

haha i feel so super influential 8D so send me more pics of the gina pose for my banner =)

Graduates of MLC 2009

2009-09-24T17:25:00.004+10:00

We have finally become old girls, the graduates of MLC 2009. Thank you girls for being there for me through thick and thin, through my ups and downs. You girls seriously mean the world to me, you don't know how much I love you guys. Though the amount of tears I cried at final assembly and afterwards may be a testimony to how much you girls mean to me. Now it's here, I can't believe it's all over =(

A blog of all my MLC memories + pics will be up sometime in the near future... but I just wanted to blog today to thank all those girls who made my high school experience that much better.

Thank you to the wonderful girls of Whitley Roll Call 1... you make each morning that much better, and getting up that early worth it. I enjoy the laughs and gossip and talks we share each morning.

Thanks to my beloved english class, all those moments spent slaving over our texts. Especially to Lily + Cindiya, my fellow disliked by Choi classmates.

Thanks to my awesome sticker crazy maths class, wouldn't have survived friday arvo double maths without you girls.

Thanks to my religion class, we survived all those 'pointless' lesson together! Seriously, crosswords?

Thanks to the awesome whitley girls, spending years of house times and roll calls with you girls was amazing.. seriously, you girls never fail to put a smile on my face and I love you girls more and more. Especially to my little sister, the sweetest girl ever. Whitley will forever be in my blood, and I'll never forget you girls. All the whitley year 12s who have supported me, pushing me to follow my dreams and not others', i love you girls beyond words. Together WE managed to win synchro and it was one of the most amazing moments of my year. Thank you!

Thanks to all those teachers who have put up with me through my high school years and have never given up on me, those who've shared a story or a hug or a smile or a joke. Those who've watched me grow, like Mr Marshall and Ms Acworth, they've been a part of my life for ages.

And most importantly, thank you to you awesome mlc girls. Yes, you know who you are. I will never ever stop loving you girls and I think each and every one of you girls are AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL. You've always been there for me when I needed it the most, and we've got so many memories together. Thanks for putting up with me when I was being the worst cry baby or in the crappiest moods. I've gotten to know each and everyone of you girls so much better this year, and I've loved every moment. YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. And I know that each MLC graduate of 2009 will go on to fulfill their dreams and goals.. because you girls are the most amazing girls ever.

I'll have to stop for now, or I 'll start crying again.
But words can not express how much you girls mean to me.
Much Love.

Final Friday and Graduation Dinner

2009-09-19T08:00:00.004+10:00

This may be a sneak preview, cause I don't think I'll have time to upload photos onto facebook until later tonight. But yesterday was an epically good day =)
5th last day of high school ever, and last Friday of school ever! Kinda daunting but at the same time it was an amazing feeling.

The final friday also meant our group's last pig out eating session in friday spares EVER =( Kind of sad... i'm gonna miss doing this! But we'll meet up once every week forever =)
So we had a pig out on KFC... and haha i feel so guilty.. but hey! u have to celebrate well and it was amazingggggly good =)

chrystal,claire and cindy getting into the kfc

This also meant, our final senior assembly ever.. kudos to our awesome captains!
So the captains made their entrance with their rendition of the 'forever' wedding entrance.. and gathered the involvement of the heads of school.. and yr 12 helped to party it up, dancing away =)
we also tried to pull a semi-prank, where all the year 12's phones would go off at the same time.. it kinda failed tho haha.. but it was hilarious seeing the reactions of all the teachers as like a hundred phone started beeping and stuff.

naww.. i'll miss this sight... hundreds of mlc girls mashed together on the floor of our gym...

yesterday was also another milestone as it was our graduation dinner. it was kinda exciting seeing everyone beautiful and dressed up! mrs stone's speech.. i lost track of what she was saying in the first 5 minutes.. but she took us on a 'journey' from london to swaziland to hobart.. but at the end.. i'm still not sure what we were meant to put in our 'suitcase'
but some of her speech was really inspirational,
a little bit of wisdom from her 'your uai (atar) in the end is like the number you get when u're waiting @ the deli.. it can't tell u what to buy or what to do'
got a little bit teary during our school song.. but i can't believe we're actually nearing the end of our high school lives! i'm gonna miss every single mlc year 12 '09 girl SO much.. but yesterday was more about soaking up our final moments together and taking pictures..
a great night, well spent with beautiful, intelligent and amazing girls!

me and hannah =)

hannah, me and alice

naww... i love these girls..
haha a little bit of asian pride?
naeun, cloe, lily, alice, noel, carol, me, hannah, susie, rena, grace and nat chua.. hot legs girlies ;)
the cream wearers of our table =) and as per tradition..... the night would be incomplete without my habitual luvoing !

I LOVE MLC '09

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-11T20:38:00.002+10:00

Happy 18th Birthday Brendonnnnnn!

woooooooooo time for gambling, alcohol, voting etc etc.
Hope u enjoy my artistic hand-made card ! damnnn should have taken a photo of it.. oh wells! too late! better treasure it !

tyty to the ppl who were helping haha (Y) love u girls.

anyways, was on the train today and a little boy and his younger sister were sitting across from me and it was SUPER cute. The little girl was around 3? and she was eating a banana, when one of the sides of her banana peel broke off. She sat there for ages trying to 'fix' it, i love that innocence. But ultimately in the end, she'll grow up and come to realise that not everything can be fixed. And the brother who was around 4, was super super super adorable! He was looking out for his little sister, telling her she had to sit all the way back on the seat or she'd fall off. If only all guys were that sweet!

p.s. thinking of those who were affected by the 911 terrorist attacks.

Taking my mind off things

2009-09-06T18:14:00.003+10:00

So I've been a mix lately, been having a hard time lately, but was also ecstatic over pleasant surprises. But yesterday really allowed me to take my minds off everything. There were people who I wish were there too.. but >_<'
Oh wells... UNSW open day was awesome.. I mean the course I really want to do is @ USYD but I really quick liked the atmosphere and stuff @ UNSW... it was literally that i couldn't walk 5m without bumping into someone i knew... haha sorry to cecil and kevin and rebecca... >_<' made u guys late to co-op! but it was just so awesome.. and seeing people i haven't seen in awhile was great... it meant lots of hugs and chats! was all good...

and mannnn i have a thing for tall guys... like not TOO tall.. but around the 180cm mark? i dunno.. alice knows what i mean haha... mmmmmmm =)

and then after unsw, we caught the bus back to central... and i swear it was a balancing game the whole trip... then kevin,kelvin,cecil and i ended up walking for awhile until we got to market city.. and bumped into other ppl...

then @ night.. went to hanabi for sarah's belated 18th and brendon's early 18th!
it was really good! the food was nice... and it was good company, good atmosphere and it was just full of laughter and pictures and it was awesome =) ehhh besides my clumsiness.. i don't know why the heck i was so clumsy last night.. rather embarrassing

ok and seriously, two questions. is it me? or do the boys appear to have a curiosity with bangles? they all tried them all and all got them stuck.. and some (*coughcecilcough*) even attempted it twice... not learning from mistakes lol and the other question is.. my hand's the same size as most of the boys.. or not that much smaller.. but why do they get it stuck? i'm confused.. why do guys have bigger knuckles?

and it was just an awesome awesome night
kudos to sarah and brendon
but thumbs down to greenbox plus!
didn't really write much about the night.. but pictures are worth a thousand words right? if so, i write essays all the time.

love kawaiinot.. so cute!

my fav photo from yesterday, jason fu's photography
me and two sexyyy ladies

a group photo of sorts =)
karaoke!
another group pic.. and it makes me lol hahaha kelvin...
the birthday girl and birthday boy!

so happy belated birthday sarah and happy early birthday brendon!
hope u both enjoyed yesterday night and your 18th was memorable for you...!
much love <3

What time is it?!

2009-09-01T17:17:00.005+10:00

So I FINALLY have another goal in life, besides having an awesome shoe collection with a walk in shoe-wardrobe... though that's still one of my goals in life!

I've kinda decided that I want to do my 6 yrs of combined science/nutrition at USYD...(with a part time job) then after I'm done, I want to go overseas for 3-6 months to do charity work. Either I want to teach English or work with young children. Then after I come back to Australia, I want to open my own private practice as a Nutritionist/Dietitian.. I wanna work Mondays-Fridays, then take Saturdays off and on Sundays go work at Meals on Wheels or somewhere I can utilise my nutrition skills =)

So anyways, I know I've personally been down about trials results, so I thought some eye candy was in order for the girls =) What time is it?!

It's 2PM!!!!!!!!

Jaebeom! ahhhh his body is heaven =) *swoons*
The boys!
I really LOVE this pic... with taecyeon's cheekbone... mmmmm he's so hot!

Jaebeom.. soaked... see through shirt, half-torn... ahhhhh *drools*

ahhhhhhh the 2pm boys AND the little one! uber cute

yum =D

I don't get Bus Driver humour...

2009-08-28T20:53:00.003+10:00

I really don't get bus driver humour... I got on the bus today, and it went something like this....:

Me: a concession to Centro Roselands please
B.D: half-concession or full concession?
Me: x_x.... what?
B.D: half-concession or full concession?
Me: uhhh,what's the difference.....?
B.D: about three quarters! *laughs*
Me: ............

I don't get the joke... if anyone gets it please explain it to me! Cos the same bus driver's tried that joke on me twice... and everytime I'm really confused and I don't know what to say.

P.S thanks Cecil for staying with me at the bus stop all the time! I appreciate the company!

Getting it out of the system

2009-08-25T22:44:00.006+10:00

EDIT: deleted some

thanks to hannah + cindy for listening to me rant and such and just basically tolerating me being stupid me being weirdly emotional which i hate. and also thanks to everyone else who was floating around asking if i were ok, like naeha and marxy and nat.

'We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today '

Dreams and friendships

2009-08-24T18:41:00.004+10:00

I had this dream last week, and it saddened me so much that I woke up almost at the point of tears. Okay, well it kinda sounds stupid but it seriously just made me so sad cos it was SO realistic. It was just basically normal life, but my relationship with you was totally different. We'd completely drifted apart and I hardly knew you anymore. You treated me with disinterest, disconnection and dislike... I tried so hard but you ignored me. We weren't friends anymore, had nothing to talk about and basically just were almost complete strangers. That really scared me and saddened me, cause I can see that the HSC has already started to do that to us. We don't talk anymore like we used to and I don't know how it happened. That kind of started off my whole contemplation.

It REALLY scares me that all the close friendships I've formed over this time may just dissolve... What if I don't have moments with you guys like on Saturday anymore? What if we don't have those talks and late night calls and talks anymore? To be realistic, we'll all probably strive to keep in touch for the first year... then eventually drift apart, only a few friendships remaining just as strong. It just really really scares and sadden me.

But Saturday was one of the best and most stress relieving day I've had in FOREVER. Glebe --> Lunch --> Glebe --> GreenBox --> Korean Karoke --> Pepper Lunch --> 32cm icecreams --> drinks in the park. I love you ALL of you guys and girls so much! I'll miss those year 12 moments so much.... all those moments that I think back to and make me smile.

Glebe babyyy
HOTHOTHOT BABY!
hahaha nat and I.... don't ask =)
my babes... bathroom luvoing!

hahahaha 32cm icecreams =)
edit//
highlight of the night was: running across the busy streets of the city holding out cones and begging the ice cream wouldn't fall off.. then claire and nat almost being run over by cars LOL

On another note... I've been seriously considering doing at USYD or UNSW.. doing a bachelor of science with a masters of nutrition/ dietetics... the ATAR cut off is like... 89.95 so it's less scary. But should I do it? Can I imagine myself as a nutritionist? There would be heaps of job ops, I mean I would like to open my own kinda place up as a nutritionist, and work especially with kids. But I could also work alongside hospitals, with sporting people, with food companies... so I don't know... Should I or should I not? My mum seems fine with it.. cos it's 'feminine' yet also somewhat 'medical'..... It's a new course at Sydney Uni, so I'm not sure if I could make it. It's a 89.95 cutoff at UNSW... and IF I REALLY was set on it.. I could always go Charles Sturt.... ATAR is 71. something lol... But based on the descriptions in the UAC book, USYD seems the most catered to what I wanna do.. I don't know.. any thoughts on it?

Breath of Relief

2009-08-21T11:48:00.007+10:00

Trials are over! But still have two exams between now and the HSC...
Thinking of all those who still have exams! Good luck!

Mr KB was so freaking evil I swear to God, that 3u maths exam extinguished alll my hopes of a high ATAR. Not only was it extremely hard for me, but also the fact that the exam was on the same day as 3u english. Oh wells. Enough study complaints.

To celebrate the end of trials.. I thought I'd post some of my screencaps of 2NE1's space Fire Mv =) I've been listening to their songs like nonstop lol. Wish I could read krn!

NB. If u want to enlarge the pics, just click on them.

You gotta drop it like it’s hot!

To the left, To the left. Siksanghan pretty boy move to the left.

It's what you make of it..

2009-08-15T17:48:00.002+10:00

I know I really really really shouldn't be blogging at the moment, but I couldn't resist it. This is for all you guys stressing with exams, worries about results and everything. A story from one of Nury Vittachi's books.

Many years ago, a King travelled by horse through his kingdom and came to a poor village where he saw something that pleased him. A target was painted on a tree with a single arrow right at its heart.

He rode a few steps further and saw another target, painted on a wall- again, with a single arrow at its centre. All around the village he found such targets- each one pierced just once, with an arrow in the exact middle.

The King said to himself: 'In this town lives the greatest of marksmen. I will ask him to come and train my soldiers.' The marksman was a boy of just thirteen years old. He moved to the palace and became the greatest leader of the King's bowmen in the history of Old China.

Many years later, the King was on his deathbed. He called the marksman with a question: 'You trained my men to shoot perfectly. But who trained you?'

The marksman said: 'No one trained me. My arrows were always at the centre of the targets because I painted each target after my arrow landed.

So my interpreted moral of the story is that it's not about the atar you get or the ranking you get or the percentage you get, it's what you make of it. You can become successful through what you make of what you have.

Good luck guys, work hard and don't dwell too much on the end results.

Half way through.

2009-08-13T20:27:00.004+10:00

I'm half way through my trials, and it's disappointing to have that feeling that I know I've screwed up, but I've got no one else to blame but myself. Ah wells, I'm already at that numb stage where I don't really care anymore.

I hate:

the fact that when i looks my worse, grossest in my study state i always have to bump into everyone, but when i'm feeling my best and ok about how i look that day, i see no one! grr
trials.. and the hsc like omfg i'm so over it already
people who like to stir crap up with their lies
being super embarrassed
being boring
guys who act like jerks with their massive egos, trying to act all 'cool' in front of other people but totally disregarding feelings of some other people.
shopping and finding something you love but not being able to buy it, in particular if it's missing your size.
not being able to sleep, but knowing you need the sleep
walking in hurst by myself.

I love:

the trips with the mlc girls out to stratty to eat
Walking home from the bus stop in the mornings and arvos
shoe shopping
my friends, being for me through thick and thin and all the great moments we have together
pumping music and getting lost in the moment
having no exams
my library buddies~! particularly alice ^^
and no surprise, luvoing =D

naww luvo buddies for sho =)
love them allllllll! hehe
@ won jo, posing claire style!
ice cream =) hehe

luvo with my sis.. and the creepy puppet she brought home frome school

=3

fml

2009-08-10T22:40:00.001+10:00

i can't memorise 3 essays.... i really don't think i'm gonna do well in these trials, which is mega disappointing.. but oh well..

how do people unknowingly make things worse? how do they somehow make things awkward and just wreck my moments where i'm content with how things are going? fml.

Trials and bangles

2009-08-04T19:56:00.013+10:00

So trials are looming upon us, and I'm scared crapless! Good luck everyone, keep on studying for trials, keep up with the hardwork and it'll all pay off. SO NOT READY.

But anyways, lately I've been lovinggggggggggg bangles and big chunky vintagy rings. So... quick 'fashion' blog once again. But yes.. stop procrastinating and go study for trials! =P
All these are from chickdowntown.com and etsy.com which is more handmade stuff, so no brands sorry.

Etsy- Steampunk vintage ring- user LondonsGate $30USD

Etsy- Strangers vintage ring- user NewFashionedWhispers $49 USD

Etsy- Sherbet Bangle- user PoppyRayeStudio $15 USD

LOVE these
Etsy- Custom wooden bangle- user palomasnest $32 USD

Etsy- Chiyogami Blue Bangle- user twinpinesdesign $18 USD

I REALLY LOVE these.. like LOVE LOVE LOVE
Etsy- 3 Skinny exotic woods bangles- user inbloomdesigns $59 USD

Etsy- Corset bangle- user AkinoJewellery $180 USD

Etsy- Zebrawood cuff exotic woods bangle- user inbloomdesigns $36 USD

Etsy- Amethyst and purple crystal copper bracelet- user creativityjewellery $115 USD

Etsy- Fly Me To the Moon Sparrow Cuff Bracelet- user nycbird $42.50 USD

Etsy- Recycled wood bangle- user inbloomdesigns $35 USD

Etsy- Falling Leaves Hand Painted Bangle- user amy987 $32 USD

Etsy- Rhinestone Cross Love Bangle- ThatsSoOhFabulous $12 USD

CDT- Rachel Leigh $35
Wide Dark Wood Pyramid Bangle
I REALLY LOVE this designer for bangles too.... they're so yummy =)

CDT- Rachel Leigh $138
Audrey Gold Bangle

CDT- Rachel Leigh $31
Thin Dark Wood Bangle

CDT- Luc Kieffer $104
Large Yellow Bangle

CDT- Citrine by the Stones $375
Silver Rocker Wrap Bracelet

CDT- CC Skye $150
Gold Triple Cobra Bangles
CDT- Rachel Leigh $85
Gold Bow Cuff

CDT- Alexis Bittar $395
Cubist Mirror Hinge Bracelet

CDT- Jules Smith $225
Vintage Spring Bracelet

CDT- Rachel Leigh $145
Millie Vintage Denim Cuff

I know I've posted this one before... but i love them!
CDT- Alex and Ani $268
Jole de Vivre Expandable Bangle Set

CDT- Alexis Bittar $255
Black Onyx Ring

Shopping, online shopping, window shopping is oh so therapeutic... love it.... this isn't procrastination.. it's... HSC stress relief =)

A little worrying....

2009-07-31T20:33:00.002+10:00

It's getting a little worrying LOL
I can see what people type into google to get to my blog... and so far.. i've come to know that when you type these.. you get into my blog:

A little part of me dies inside
Just died a little bit
Died a little bit inside
I just died a little
Just died a lil bit

It's kind of worrying that people are typing these things into google AND reaching my blog.....

Anyways.. I'm really hating the fact that I ONLY attract sleazy old guys... homeless or otherwise...
like ew. i HATE walking in hurst by myself...

I've also been having major 'body image' issues lately.... and like it's been incredibly hard. so....

THANK YOU to all those who've supported me lately, let me rant to them, had late night convos with me, indulged me in my hugs, bought me food, lent me a shoulder to rest on, comforted me, showed concern for me, kept me company when I was lonely, made me smile, made me laugh and made me appreciate even more those around me.

LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

Assumptions

2009-07-29T22:30:00.002+10:00

It's funny how if you see a guy and a girl together, with no one else, people just assume they're going out or like each other. I have to admit that sometimes I make that assumption too, but I wonder why we assume that. I remember having that conversation with hannah and alice.. and claire might have been there too? in the common room and how there was also the belief that two people of opposite genders can't be friends without one of them liking the other or at least passing through that stage where you wonder do i like him/her? does he/she like me?

I have to admit, a lot of the times when i meet a new guy, i ask myself those questions, but i can honestly say that there are lots of my guy friends with whom i've never been through that stage. so yeah, i really do believe that a guy and a girl can be friends without that occurring. But when you see a guy and a girl together, you still make that assumption... I know people have made that assumption with me. I remember going to Burwood Westfields with Hannah in year 10 to meet N and N's friend S. In the end S and I decided to leave first, and it was the first time that I've ever met him. I went to school the next day and I had 3 girls approach me and say 'Hey! I saw you with your boyfriend yesterday', I lol-ed because it was the first time that I'd ever met S. It's funny how these things happen.

Or there's always that assumption that because you're close friends with a guy, something's going on. Haha I've had SO many randoms add me or ask me if i were A's gf or B's gf or whoever , or if there was something going on. So many times I sat there and just cracked up, cause I could never ever imagine me and the guy going out. I guess we're just not taught that a guy and a girl can be friends without that 'something'.

3am talks and clothes =D

2009-07-24T16:16:00.010+10:00

Haha last night was interesting... talking to cecil until 3am about like stuff that to be honest i have talked to many other people about. learnt many interesting things too and confirmed suspicions! love late night talks =) kudos to cecil =) lol regardless of me vowing to not emotional rant.. i can't help it =_=' actually quite irritating

anyways i thought i'd do another clothing blog.. cos i've been collating pictures of pretty clothes.. but haven't done a post in ages.. so warning: clothing filled!

Wish
Vice Satin Skirt

Wish
Dizzy Silk Dress..
I think it'd kinda look better if it were a bit longer...

Wish

Wish
Audition Dress $149.95

Wish
Vixen Tunic $99.95

Wish
Fixation Dress $149.95

Wish
Album Blouse $89.95
I reallyyy like this blouse!
Wayne Cooper
Taimu Silk Carmen Dress

Wayne Cooper
Patent Lace Up Peep Toe Shoe

Wayne Cooper
Slinky Jersey One Shoulder gather cocktail dress

Wayne Cooper
Film Star Wool asymetric tuck mini skirt

Tony Bianco
Palais 12cm $159.95

Tony Bianco
Jaffa 12.5cm $169.95
Tony Bianco
Patriot 11.5cm $329.95

Tony Bianco
Hot 12.5cm $159.95

Tadahi
$210

This is reallyy similar to what I would want as my formal dress

Sass and Bide
A film star $22o

Sass and Bide
On My Way Home $320

Miu Miu
Suede Platform Pumps £295

Marc Jacobs
Voile White Sleeveless Dress $298

Marc Jacobs
Primerose garden dress $428

Manolo Blahnik
Buckled Satin Pump $945

Jimmy Choo
£212.77

Jimmy Choo
OTK Calf Leather Boot $1395

Gucci
Black Satin crystal detail peep toe pumps $512

Free People
Black Viscose Night Part Dress $68

Diane Von Furstenberg
£175.10

Diane Von Furstenberg
Jersey Dress $365

Diane Von Furstenberg
Cropper Leather Jacket $825

Christian Louboutin
Very Prive Satin Platform Pump $795

Christian Louboutin
Hidden Platform Pump $795

Christian Louboutin
Liv Buckled Patent Clutch $895

Boss Black
$579

Betsey Johnson
Balck Battenburg Lace Bow Detail Party Dress $315

I loveeeeeeee this dress! too cute

Be & D
$895

Azzaro
Jemima jeweled gown £3982

On a side note, a Happyy Birthdayyy to Daniel =)
Hope you enjoyed our announcement and birthday song over the library loudspeaker... wish i could have seen his expression lol.. kudos to alice, library guy, ollie, emily, michelle, anna and mari for making it happen! =D even tho alice screwed up the announcement and i had to take over lol... but anyways
kogarah lock in both weeks has been awesome fun... life goal accomplished right there... stay at a library til 12am...

Enjoy the rest of your holidays guys!

Hugs, shout outs, sorrys and friends

2009-07-19T17:21:00.007+10:00

Well this was actually planned to be another blog about clothes... but since i'm capped.. my net doesn't appear to want to upload photos.. so instead it'll be about what the title says.

Firstly, a shout out to all those who comment on my blog. Honestly, you don't know how happy it makes me feel when I receive a comment, it always makes me smile, sends me comfort and I just appreciate knowing that people read my blogs. In return, I try to comment back on people's blogs, but I'm sorry to Jehlei, Joy, Emily and Shiva.. sometimes i unintentionally neglect your blogs because updates don't appear on my blogroll. So THANK YOU to all my commenters, I wanted to list you all.. but I'm scared that I'll leave someone out.. maybe I'll try anyways ><' So thank you heshi, hnam, canadian, mistyazn, strangledcod, jehlei, joy, shiva, noel, jason, tim, emily, dwong, bev, cecil, qwertatious, susie, keith, aditi, rebecca, carol
I'm REALLY sorry if I missed anyone, let me know if I did and i'll add you up. Really really appreciate it babes =)

Also, one of my pet peeves is sorrys that seem ingenuine and that come for no reason. Haha this kinda stems from all those anon apologies i see to get in my cbox.... like i just don't like not knowing why people are apologising to me, there just doesn't seem like there's much point. I also really don't like when people apologise by saying 'soz', like it's convenient and all... but it's just not a sincere apology. Sometimes I find myself saying it just because it's so common these days, but I hate it when I do. If you apologise, be sincere and say it properly. Don't say sorry if you don't mean it.

One thing that always makes me really happy are hugs. And I was talking to heshi the other day about hugs, and it's funny what makes a hug so good and how a hug can make you feel. For me, the best hugs tend to come from guys who have the ability to make them tight, warm and just make me feel so protected and safe, like there's nothing else in the world that matters. Best huggers I can think off the top of my head are R and J. It's always a bonus if the guy's taller than you too.. fav person to hug is Daniel.. haha even tho he doesn't hug back.. i don't know why i like to tho... When I'm at my all time low and feeling upset or hysterical a good hug can lift my spirits. A hug also has the ability to make my day. I'm an ultimate hugaholic. I love hugs whenever.

Finally, friends.. I think that this photos from muck up day (courtesy of Maddie) really sums up what friendship is. Despite different personalities, characteristics, interests or hobbies I feel this closeness with heaps of you guys. We just work so well together.. Our group is so different, like we vary so much from the fobs to the very non-fobs, musos to the tonedeaf, the tall to the not so tall, anime lovers to the anime indifferent.. I love us =) This picture really makes me smile.

Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, MLC style.
Evil Queen- Noel, Apple- Alice, Snow White- Me, Prince- Hannah, Woodcutter- Marxy, Chimer- Cloe, Bashful- Kate, Happy- Rena, Doc- Emma, Dopey- Carol, Sneezy- Claire, Grumpy- Chrystal and Sleepy- Lily.
Thank you for just being you. <3

Funny funny day at the library

2009-07-17T17:15:00.003+10:00

So, me, alice, claire and hannah were @ hurst lib. yesterday. well and sorta cecil too but he wasn't on our table. and there we had our encounter with the bully kids....

they may look cute, but they sure weren't innocent lol. well at least not the girls.
it started off innocently, them pulling faces at alice. then it escalated to them pulling faces at all of us and making gestures. we played along for awhile but then continued studying, then that's when the first note came.

one of the little girls suddenly came over and threw down a note on my laptop...

claire added the don't lol.
even little 7 year old kids think we're lesbians... great!

this one was SUPER cute.. haha i wanted to take him home .. but he wasn't an evil one... so i obviously have good taste!

then there came a second note.
i don't know how we turned into nasty girls... nasty lesbina girls infact.....

then for some reason.. they decided to start painting my face/ stabbing the back of my head with a paintbrush.... like ONLY me... gosh =.='

we even sent a note back.. but the little girl ripped it up =(

this is the fourth note.. i'm leaving the third and funniest note for last..

nasty lesbian girls who wear nappies.... fabulous =)
but LOL claire tried to correct the note grammatically and spelling-wise but she epic failed...
instead of 'you wear nappys?' she fixed it to say 'you where nappys' funnyy stuff

harrassment! stealing my stuff >_>

hahaha they were making the poor little green boy pull faces!

cute couple la

biggest luvos out YO!
how cuteee =)

the last note, i think you can enlarge it to read.. but basically it says
'If you don't let us play your laptop, let us see your niples'
like LOL LOL what dirty children =.=' and quote from scary darren
'Darren Chan at 8:16pm July 16

they knew what they wanted. not even "show us your boobs" it was "show us your nipples", i dont know whether to be shocked or surprised'

lols that about sums it up =)

other quotes from the day were...
after seeing cecil talking to us
'there's ONE boy and FOUR girls! *insert horrified voices*
they told me that
'YOU should marry him because you're the oldest'
oh geez i'm such a bad friend....
haha also.. when we told them that cecil could be THEIR boyfriend... one of the 7 yr old girl exclaims 'NO he's too small to be my boyfriend!'
i wonder what that means LOL

funny funny but rude and weird kids.
oh the adventures we have in hurstville library.

Amy's 18th =)

2009-07-14T20:21:00.004+10:00

Haven't bloggged for awhile
but finally a day worthy of blogging...
not that my days with alice @ the library aren't blogworthy...
but LOL i think ppl would get boredddd
so last sat night was amy's 18th bday partyyy
happppyyy belated birthday babe !

so beforehand, i was @ alice's place... where we were meant to studyy haha but just ended up chatting with alice and nat... then reminiscing with alice... and then doing make up, dressing up and looking @ allll our beautiful black high heels =D
like i loveeee high heels so much beyond belief lol.. anyways

then afterwards.. we went to buy flowers for amy... and the lady was like... where are u girls going? i was like an 18th bday.... and she was like O_o u're not 18 are u...?
wonder if that means that i look old or if i look young... anyways

before the party.. we went to amy's for a pre thing.. so it was me, alice, amy, fionna, sue, dorea, cecil, daniel, bevis... and amy's bro + friend were floating around somewhere lol
bevis made amy a.... cake thing.. and we cut it and such =)

the beautiful birthday girl cutting the cake thing =)

afterwards bevis drove me, amy, cecil, daniel to sunny's where was the place of the partyyy

me and the birthday girl =)
sorryy other pics of me and her were even grossier (courtesy of amy's cam)

part of our table... jason fu + me + little darren + rebecca+ ronald..
me and alice =) luvos for life yo! haha despite yr 12.. i alwaiis have time for luvoing =)

amy's bro anthony dancing =) pretty good! cecil + dj guy did some dancing too !

i was stalking these two all night.... hehe and is it me or does cecil look a lil bit smug? =P

favouriteeeee photo i took that night..
haha epic georgina pose =) i taught these boys well!
jasson + me + robbie

hahahah this was so funnyy... daniel + jasson dancing behind the DJ guy

ppl dancing and socialising =)

scaryy darren DJ-ing

arm wrestling lol... cecil vs. lawrence with kevin, little darren and bevis in the background
brendon and i
AND MY BABIES ! haha yes i bought the shoes.. they were a hit with some of the girls that night =P i loveeeeee them!

also.. i've been thinking lol..
and when i'm out of school.. you can really tell when i'm not feeling great
top signs:
1. fringe pinned back 2. hair pulled back into ponytail/bun 3. no eyeliner 4. lack of high heels 5. lack of jewellery 6. when i'm in pants... u know something's up haha

anyways.. thanks for the great night amy!
lots of love!

It's sad...

2009-07-05T13:01:00.002+10:00

I was sitting in Hurstville's Gloria Jeans today and I was just thinking.. it's so sad how society is shaped and all the societal values..
For example, Hurstville Gloria Jeans probably sells a lot more coffee because of the cute guy who works there. I know everyweek some of us from Harry's go to check out the cute guy, and naturally you'd be swayed to buy coffee from there because he's there, if it's a toss up between 2 store that sell coffee, the one with the cuter worker would win. So wouldn't that also apply to other stores? Like if you go to a clothing shop to check out the cute guy/girl.. there's a greater chance that you'd end up seeing something you like and end up buying it.
And when applying for a job, if there are two people with the same credentials, the prettier one/ better looking one would most likely win out.
Society's constantly telling us that we have to be thin and good looking to succeed, makeup sells because it's telling girls and women that if you buy it, you'll look better and thus the guy of your dreams will fall in love with you. Can't a guy fall in love with you because you're beautiful on the inside?
Everything sells based on image. In those losing weight ads, they always show a slightly plump woman then the after shot is of a skinny woman, they might have lost 6 kg. They never show an obsese woman who's lost maybe 20 kg but still looks kind of chubby. Why? Because people don't really notice the numbers, how much they've lost, they look at the after photo, see a stunning skinny person and buy the product because that's what society tells us we should look like.

All that is the reason why I dress the way I do, always 'glammed' up because I feel the need to make up for the lack of natural prettiness. It's the reason why I went through the stage of throwing up after every meal and never eating when I was out with friends. It's the reason why I love buying shoes, because no matter how crap you look, beautiful shoes are always beautiful and people will notice you for that. It's the reason why I always have long hair and leave my hair out, to cover up my insecurities of a fat face. It's the reason why I hate fat jokes, they make me feel so insecure and judged.

When I tell people how I feel, and they tell me it's just about eating right, eating less and doing something about losing weight. I feel like telling them it's so much more than that. It's about getting over that mentality. People think it's stupid that I went through that bullimic stage, but throwing up made me feel so much better. There's alwaiis reasons behind actions, and people don't understand. I cried and sometimes still cry myself to sleep at night, because I'd wake up look in the mirror and hate what I saw. Anywhere I go, I always have the fam friends and relatives who take pleasure in telling me how fat I am, don't you think I already know?! I've gained weight recently, so I understand.. but even back when I was 53kg.. which is pretty normal/slim for someone who's 165cm.. I got told I was fat as... Just because you guys are normal asian who are thin and petite, doesn't mean I'm fucking obese. It's that mentality that really annoys me, even though I'm normal for someone my height, I constantly get told I'm fat as. I'm so over all this. Deal with it, I'm a HSC fattiee and not a HSC ano.

I just died a little bit inside...

2009-07-02T19:24:00.001+10:00

A little bit of me just totally died inside =(
Tonight's Thurday night shopping.. and we were @ Myers.. and I found a pair of shoes and I totally fell in love with them.. like they were madeeee for me!

Wayne Cooper
Black High Heels
LAST pair so it was cheaper.. it was less than $100!!!
AND it was MY size.. what are the chances of that?!

BUT MY MUM WOULDN'T LET ME BUY THEM....

Honestly, a little part of me just died. R.I.P

..... on a side note
after school me, chrystal, claire, hannah and lily yam went karoke @ FM...
twas good =) BUT we need to learn krn....
AND it's official... i'm the total pro @ working the krn karoke remote =)
even tho hannah is krn.... i'm still better than her @ working it + finding songs...
fail krn =P

Hate..

2009-07-01T18:39:00.004+10:00

I used to hate you...
Not because you were a horrible person or anything.
But because you made me feel non-existant... i thought we were close.. then i remember once.. you spent the whole time talking to them. you didn't even talk to me, or anything. i thought maybe because they were better than me. prettier than me. funnier than me. cuter than me. friendlier than me. i don't know.. maybe because like JQ's friend said 'nice girls are boring'. i felt crap, maybe i just wasn't good enough for you. maybe you didn't care. but i never wanted to say anything, in case i was too clingy or too annoying. i was too scared, but i may as well have not been there. you comment them, you talk to them, but i thought we were close but i just felt used. but it's all in my head.

I also hate it when you work so hard, when you put so much effort into one thing, then you fail miserably anyways. What's the point when it's going to turn out the same regardless?

happier blog posts to come =)

after reading lil darren's blog, it reminded me of all my favourite kawaii not webcomics!

so this one's for all those extension 1 english students.
hope all that work we've put into our presentation is worth it, i'm so scared..

I love fruit tingles..

2009-06-26T21:21:00.004+10:00

I love fruit tingles.. hehe =D
they make me feel the way i felt today when WE GOT OUR JERSEYS =D
yayyyyy!!

hehe love these two girls!

youCHUbe + I don't get it + heshi!
Dedicated to hannah's fishiee!
Dear fishee,
Please get better soon! Hannah loves you and so do I =D I hand picked you carefully cos u were oh so pretty! and i formed memories with u in that one day... i took u to the library with me in a plastic bag... and i freaked out when u rolled off the table.. and i freaked out when daniel cha told me ur bag would pop if i held u too mcuh.... and i got told to eat u... and u met several of my library friends =D
so please get better soon! we're thinking of you!

love, Gina

haha asian pride yo!
jq + carol + jlee + cloe + lyam + lying + hnam + susie + marxy + heshi + me!
jerseyyyys!

also.. tee hee found a photo of these! i'm so in love with them! SESAME STREET CUPCAKES!
someone bake them for me! spesh those who CAN cook/bake (eg. bevis!)

also, R.I.P michael jackson + farah fawcett...
thank you for enetertaining the world while u were here on earth =)
thinking of u guys!

Ergh

2009-06-23T19:05:00.002+10:00

Ergh is the only word that i can use to describe how i feel.
i feel crappy because i'm so pathetic that i cry out of pity for myself.
Disabled comments, because i'm sorry i just don't want to talk to anyone about this.
all i want is a hug, but too bad that most of the people i wish to hug either i don't see much or don't like hugs.